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I feel like an extremely selfish person lately. Its like I just take and take and take and expect things to be done for me and to get what I want and I don't give back nearly what I should.
Atleast that's what this weekend made me feel like. I had the worst mood swings ever. I can't hold back my feelings, if I'm upset with you I'm going to let you know. If I think that was a stupid idea I'm going to tell you. And it makes me very hard to be around. I don't even like myself when I do that and that makes me even more mad.
And when the only person that I literally cry on and makes me feel better every time says something like that, yeah, that was my breaking point for the weekend. I wanted to cry at the drop of a hat all day yesterday. I do feel better today, but geez. Really? Fine. Guess I deserved it somehow. I usually do. Wow, I'm going back to my whiny, emo high schooler self. But that's what this is for. And I don't care who reads it. I doubt anyone does anyways. So I don't care.
I'm just so freaking tired and run down. Every morning I have to literally drag myself out of bed and out the door. I can't go on like this much longer. I need a day just for me. But maybe that's where I'm being selfish again.
Atleast that's what this weekend made me feel like. I had the worst mood swings ever. I can't hold back my feelings, if I'm upset with you I'm going to let you know. If I think that was a stupid idea I'm going to tell you. And it makes me very hard to be around. I don't even like myself when I do that and that makes me even more mad.
And when the only person that I literally cry on and makes me feel better every time says something like that, yeah, that was my breaking point for the weekend. I wanted to cry at the drop of a hat all day yesterday. I do feel better today, but geez. Really? Fine. Guess I deserved it somehow. I usually do. Wow, I'm going back to my whiny, emo high schooler self. But that's what this is for. And I don't care who reads it. I doubt anyone does anyways. So I don't care.
I'm just so freaking tired and run down. Every morning I have to literally drag myself out of bed and out the door. I can't go on like this much longer. I need a day just for me. But maybe that's where I'm being selfish again.