Hi people
Haven't gone to LJ for a while. In fact, I haven't surfed for a while.
For about one week I've got cable connection. But well, I kinda lost my appetite to go online. The reason is well known.
In fact, now I have no one to go out with.
Yes, throughout my time back home I spent days only with my family. I feel I've lost all my friends - people I considered as friends. Indonesians who I met online from Melbourne are not interested to see me. Nobody contacts me or saying they are available to see me.
It's really frustating for me that in a place I consider by all means to be my home, I feel really restrained. I can't go out walking or taking public transport - big chance I'll get mugged. Some strangers had looked down on me because I speak proper Indonesian, not the local dialect that I'm not familiar with. The worst thing is the air of negativity everywhere.
I wonder if people I considered to be my friends looked me up when I was in Melbourne because I was 'overseas', and already back in Indonesia, I'm no one. I caught up with bitter truth that although now I can drive, it doesn't change the fact that no one is interested to see me. Anyone care to speculate why no one wants to see me?
Well, I've enrolled in the city's Japan Language and Cultural Centre. Because it doesn't have many students, I was put in private class. This week my head is spinning from memorizing the 46 characters of hiragana.
The driving lesson concluded 2 weeks ago...I bumped into TWO motorbikes that cut my path and smashed the car's leftside rearview mirror into a car that was parked in the middle of the street.
I continue bringing my digital camera and taking pictures of things I like. Hope I have the appetite to publish them here and there...in part I just want to convince myself that life's beautiful. The best inspirations, again and again, are Japanese movies. Because for some strange reason, Indonesian media are really cynical or pessimistic, just like the society.
For about one week I've got cable connection. But well, I kinda lost my appetite to go online. The reason is well known.
In fact, now I have no one to go out with.
Yes, throughout my time back home I spent days only with my family. I feel I've lost all my friends - people I considered as friends. Indonesians who I met online from Melbourne are not interested to see me. Nobody contacts me or saying they are available to see me.
It's really frustating for me that in a place I consider by all means to be my home, I feel really restrained. I can't go out walking or taking public transport - big chance I'll get mugged. Some strangers had looked down on me because I speak proper Indonesian, not the local dialect that I'm not familiar with. The worst thing is the air of negativity everywhere.
I wonder if people I considered to be my friends looked me up when I was in Melbourne because I was 'overseas', and already back in Indonesia, I'm no one. I caught up with bitter truth that although now I can drive, it doesn't change the fact that no one is interested to see me. Anyone care to speculate why no one wants to see me?
Well, I've enrolled in the city's Japan Language and Cultural Centre. Because it doesn't have many students, I was put in private class. This week my head is spinning from memorizing the 46 characters of hiragana.
The driving lesson concluded 2 weeks ago...I bumped into TWO motorbikes that cut my path and smashed the car's leftside rearview mirror into a car that was parked in the middle of the street.
I continue bringing my digital camera and taking pictures of things I like. Hope I have the appetite to publish them here and there...in part I just want to convince myself that life's beautiful. The best inspirations, again and again, are Japanese movies. Because for some strange reason, Indonesian media are really cynical or pessimistic, just like the society.