If You Stand in a Circle Then You'll All Have a Back to Bite
I feel a psyclone coming on. Can anyone else feel it? Like some sort of invisible tension building all around? Not tension in a negative way, just in general. I've had this distinct feeling lately that something big is building right under my nose. The end of 2006 brought these unexpected events that are marching into this year. Really, doesn't anyone else feel like it's building to something? Maybe I'm looking too deep into it, but it's more of a feeling than a thought. Who knows? Maybe it's a personal build-up. But if anyone else has felt it, then maybe it's something real or significant or something. I've become a strong believer of things happening for a reason lately. Not in a religious way, just large scale cause and effect. Maybe I only believe in it to justify my mistakes. It's certainly possible. But then again, it's also possible that it's true. Reagardless of that debate, I still feel like the reason for these events is that they are going into something big, but I don't know what that means. I'm very confused. I think I mean that something is going to strike everybody at once. Maybe it'll be negative for some, and positive for others. Again, it confuses me. It's a feeling not a concrete thought. Gah, this is all horribly jumbled. I wish there was some easy way to relate this.
My other thought for the night is why is it so difficult for some people to say what they really mean? I suppose I'm included in that category which raises my curiosity about it. It's a really basic thought, but I've never actually thought about it. For example, why can't certain people say how they feel about each other if they are certain about their thoughts? I am drawing from someone's expirience, but I won't go into that. That would be rude and gossipy and I want to avoid gossip here. But anyways, so these two people have had 'run-ins', if you will. Twice. But the two don't really like one another like that, at least on one account. One of them doesn't, but upon trying to 'explain' that, they just dance around it. The otehr party does the same, keeping their words at a minimum. Both of them. All that ensues is a gap-filled conversation with no resolve or coherent thought for that matter. But why?? It could be because they're actually uncertain subconciously, but it didn't seem that way at all. So is it just a fear of resolution, because that's what I feel like. Maybe people are afraid of getting an answer that's final. Indesiveness takes over? Is that good or bad though? Does not wanting a clear-cut resolution make us more open to multiple approaches to a situation, or just confuse us? Both perhaps? I don't know. It's not a profound thought or anything, just something that's been on my mind.
So as you can tell, I've just been confused lately. I've been consumed with thoughts like this. I feel like I am continually analyzing people for some odd reason. Lately it's been my mother. I think she's going through a mid-life crisis or something. Lately she's been insanely stressed out for some reason. All she's done since the year started is complain about her job. She seems more bitter towards everything lately. And now she's taking two months off work because of 'stress'. I'm trying hard to not add to that. It strikes me as very peculiar. She's always been a very calm person, but at the start of the year she was falling apart. Now that she's on this two month break though, she seems much happier and calmer again. This is what I mean about everyone about to go through something big. She's on the verge of some self discovery I believe. Some people are trying to strike up relationships. Some are in some fresh relationships. Some are expiriementing around. Some are confused. Some are angry. This is what I'm talking about. There's this massive, eventful train of thoughts and feelings that are about to bring forth a massive self-discovery. I feel it!
My other thought for the night is why is it so difficult for some people to say what they really mean? I suppose I'm included in that category which raises my curiosity about it. It's a really basic thought, but I've never actually thought about it. For example, why can't certain people say how they feel about each other if they are certain about their thoughts? I am drawing from someone's expirience, but I won't go into that. That would be rude and gossipy and I want to avoid gossip here. But anyways, so these two people have had 'run-ins', if you will. Twice. But the two don't really like one another like that, at least on one account. One of them doesn't, but upon trying to 'explain' that, they just dance around it. The otehr party does the same, keeping their words at a minimum. Both of them. All that ensues is a gap-filled conversation with no resolve or coherent thought for that matter. But why?? It could be because they're actually uncertain subconciously, but it didn't seem that way at all. So is it just a fear of resolution, because that's what I feel like. Maybe people are afraid of getting an answer that's final. Indesiveness takes over? Is that good or bad though? Does not wanting a clear-cut resolution make us more open to multiple approaches to a situation, or just confuse us? Both perhaps? I don't know. It's not a profound thought or anything, just something that's been on my mind.
So as you can tell, I've just been confused lately. I've been consumed with thoughts like this. I feel like I am continually analyzing people for some odd reason. Lately it's been my mother. I think she's going through a mid-life crisis or something. Lately she's been insanely stressed out for some reason. All she's done since the year started is complain about her job. She seems more bitter towards everything lately. And now she's taking two months off work because of 'stress'. I'm trying hard to not add to that. It strikes me as very peculiar. She's always been a very calm person, but at the start of the year she was falling apart. Now that she's on this two month break though, she seems much happier and calmer again. This is what I mean about everyone about to go through something big. She's on the verge of some self discovery I believe. Some people are trying to strike up relationships. Some are in some fresh relationships. Some are expiriementing around. Some are confused. Some are angry. This is what I'm talking about. There's this massive, eventful train of thoughts and feelings that are about to bring forth a massive self-discovery. I feel it!