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I have insomnia tonight, but it's a much needed one - it's been one of this introspective nights.
I can see the sky brightening outside my window - and this chill cool morning air is just perfect to think while nicely nestled in a sweatshirt, sweatpants, and fuzzy slippers... with a cup of hot chai tea.
I sat on my porch not too long ago and actually listened to the voicemails on my cellphone... I never usually do. (For that I feel/am extremely terrible; I don't mean to upset any one by this, it's just natural at this point.) I had one from each of my parents, left within the past couple days. While what they said was quite their typical way of leaving a message that they know their daughter might not listen to (I'm sure they know this about me at this point), to hear the soothing voices that had previously once in my life cooed and calmed me - right now, at this moment, have switched off all the thoughts in my head that have been culminating into a gigantic pig pen of a mess: so hurried and far spaced out - some intersecting while some run parallel to one another.
The former called while on a journey to move to the opposite end of the east coast.
The latter called to remind me he is coming on Thursday to see me on my birthday.
Their voices were like melting butter... or they made me melt like butter.
I also have a new wonderfully big supportive family at work; everyone is amazing.
I have fantastic understanding friends who are there when I need them.
Things are never as bad as they seem.
I can see the sky brightening outside my window - and this chill cool morning air is just perfect to think while nicely nestled in a sweatshirt, sweatpants, and fuzzy slippers... with a cup of hot chai tea.
I sat on my porch not too long ago and actually listened to the voicemails on my cellphone... I never usually do. (For that I feel/am extremely terrible; I don't mean to upset any one by this, it's just natural at this point.) I had one from each of my parents, left within the past couple days. While what they said was quite their typical way of leaving a message that they know their daughter might not listen to (I'm sure they know this about me at this point), to hear the soothing voices that had previously once in my life cooed and calmed me - right now, at this moment, have switched off all the thoughts in my head that have been culminating into a gigantic pig pen of a mess: so hurried and far spaced out - some intersecting while some run parallel to one another.
The former called while on a journey to move to the opposite end of the east coast.
The latter called to remind me he is coming on Thursday to see me on my birthday.
Their voices were like melting butter... or they made me melt like butter.
I also have a new wonderfully big supportive family at work; everyone is amazing.
I have fantastic understanding friends who are there when I need them.
Things are never as bad as they seem.