One fucked up night
Well, I had the craziest night the other night. As AMO says fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. I just hope everything will be alright eventually. I feel as if I will never be comfortable at my best friends house again...that makes me very sad and upset. I just hope she is doing ok.
I am very EMO today! I really don't know why?!?! I guess because of last night and I got a call from Shannon who is Nick's "g/f" that he will not admit that he has. I had to tell her what she was calling about...Nick cheated on her all the time...I had to tell her but, part of me feels really guilty. Nick doesn't deserve a decent girl though. He is quite the ass hole. I haven't really thought about him much until I got that phone call. It breaks my heart that I could have ever loved someone so cruel as to lead on and lie to a decent person
Day by day I find myself becoming more and more enamored with Corey. I really like him...I miss him a lot... I just need reassurance from him before I even tell him anything. I don't want to set myself up to get heart broken. That is the last thing I need.
THINGS I HAVE LEARNED...
1. Nick fucking sucks
2. Let boys come to you; don't make the effort
3. Drugs really are bad
4. Lying gets you no where
5. HONESTY is the BEST POLICY
6. I have the best friends in the world and if anyone fucks with them I feel the need to HURT them
7. Caring about others is much more rewarding then caring about yourself
8. You really do need to go to class to do well :)
9. Living alone is really lonely :(
10. Sleeping all the time really makes your more tired
I am sure there is much more but the basics... I love all of my friends and I am so worried about each person for different reasons. And you all know what those reasons are!!! To everyone that I love BE CAREFUL..."It's alright if you love me; it's all right if you don't...I am not afraid..." Tom Petty
I am very EMO today! I really don't know why?!?! I guess because of last night and I got a call from Shannon who is Nick's "g/f" that he will not admit that he has. I had to tell her what she was calling about...Nick cheated on her all the time...I had to tell her but, part of me feels really guilty. Nick doesn't deserve a decent girl though. He is quite the ass hole. I haven't really thought about him much until I got that phone call. It breaks my heart that I could have ever loved someone so cruel as to lead on and lie to a decent person
Day by day I find myself becoming more and more enamored with Corey. I really like him...I miss him a lot... I just need reassurance from him before I even tell him anything. I don't want to set myself up to get heart broken. That is the last thing I need.
THINGS I HAVE LEARNED...
1. Nick fucking sucks
2. Let boys come to you; don't make the effort
3. Drugs really are bad
4. Lying gets you no where
5. HONESTY is the BEST POLICY
6. I have the best friends in the world and if anyone fucks with them I feel the need to HURT them
7. Caring about others is much more rewarding then caring about yourself
8. You really do need to go to class to do well :)
9. Living alone is really lonely :(
10. Sleeping all the time really makes your more tired
I am sure there is much more but the basics... I love all of my friends and I am so worried about each person for different reasons. And you all know what those reasons are!!! To everyone that I love BE CAREFUL..."It's alright if you love me; it's all right if you don't...I am not afraid..." Tom Petty