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Jun 15, 2005 22:25

I just watched a home movie from 14 years ago. It was so weird. It was a video of my parent's friend's birthday party. I was 11 years old. I was running around and dancing and making faces at the camera and always waving at the camera. I was one of those annoying kids that wanted to be the center of attention. Its just so weird to see myself like this because this is so not who I am anymore. I was so happy and not self conscious at all and just totally oblivious to my surroundings and totally comfortable in my own skin. Its just weird because I don't even remember myself like that. It was like watching someone else. Like watching this cute, outgoing kid running around and having a great time. It was also weird to see my parents and all their friends look so young too. It was also weird to see people that are no longer around, especially my grandma. She looked so young and she had her hair all fixed. She was also doing some dancing. It was so cute. It was just weird because she was so sick for so long that I have forgotten what she was like before she got sick. It was really cute to see my brother too. He was 15 at the time. I have seen many pictures from that time, but it was just weird to see a video, to see how everyone was acting and to hear people's voices. Watching the video made me think about growing up. How it just happens, you get older and smarter and you change. You get self conscious and you try to be cool or whatever. Its kinda cliche, but I wish you can just hang on to that innocence.
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