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I feel so. Awful.
She came runnin'
I hate everything that came before me
Crush
I'm breakin' under the crush
I never should have kept it all inside for so long. Because it had been eating away at me for almost a month now. And yesterday just kind of push me over the edge. I didn't know what to do really, so I did the stupid thing, I ran away from those who would have helped me.
I've been runnin'
Just to get away from what's inside me
Rush
I'm drownin' under the rush
Rudy, you had no idea, but your post may have saved my life, in a way. If I had kept on feeling depressed and had not read your post, I...I don't know what would have happened. *hangs head in shame* Thank you for that. Everything you said in your post as true, and it got me thinking...even if people say bad things about me, I can still feel a personal sense of pride for what I've done ever since I stepped on the ice as a child.
Put me back
Into the same shape
How you found me
Before you broke me
Thank you all SO much for all of your support, it means so much to me to know I have friends who care enough to tell me when I'm stupid. *gives big huge hugs and a sloppy kiss to all of you*
Lost you once
I never had a second chance
Would you have changed your mind
With a second glance?
Gwendal, and everyone else, I never meant to do anything to hurt you or depress you or anything. Can you forgive me?
And as for hanging up my skates...I'm not sure what I'll do yet. It's something I need to do, for me, but I honestly don't know how long it will last. I could be on the ice tomorrow, I could be on in three weeks. I don't know.
You gotta roll with the punches to get to what is real
Knock down the bastards and show them how it feels
'Cause you know
It's not easy when you feel they
Go out of their way to get you
It's not easy when you feel they
Go out of their way to get to you
And all your dreams are coming true
And now you wish they'd stayed inside you
Gwendal didn't hear me come in the door, I think he was on the phone upstairs. When he came into the room, he found me just sitting on the bed, and we hugged for the longest time...
I love you all. And I promise never, EVER to do that again...
(Song lyrics are from the songs "I Can Feel It", "Loosens," "Snowsuit Sound," and "Stand By Me, Yeah," by Sloan.)
She came runnin'
I hate everything that came before me
Crush
I'm breakin' under the crush
I never should have kept it all inside for so long. Because it had been eating away at me for almost a month now. And yesterday just kind of push me over the edge. I didn't know what to do really, so I did the stupid thing, I ran away from those who would have helped me.
I've been runnin'
Just to get away from what's inside me
Rush
I'm drownin' under the rush
Rudy, you had no idea, but your post may have saved my life, in a way. If I had kept on feeling depressed and had not read your post, I...I don't know what would have happened. *hangs head in shame* Thank you for that. Everything you said in your post as true, and it got me thinking...even if people say bad things about me, I can still feel a personal sense of pride for what I've done ever since I stepped on the ice as a child.
Put me back
Into the same shape
How you found me
Before you broke me
Thank you all SO much for all of your support, it means so much to me to know I have friends who care enough to tell me when I'm stupid. *gives big huge hugs and a sloppy kiss to all of you*
Lost you once
I never had a second chance
Would you have changed your mind
With a second glance?
Gwendal, and everyone else, I never meant to do anything to hurt you or depress you or anything. Can you forgive me?
And as for hanging up my skates...I'm not sure what I'll do yet. It's something I need to do, for me, but I honestly don't know how long it will last. I could be on the ice tomorrow, I could be on in three weeks. I don't know.
You gotta roll with the punches to get to what is real
Knock down the bastards and show them how it feels
'Cause you know
It's not easy when you feel they
Go out of their way to get you
It's not easy when you feel they
Go out of their way to get to you
And all your dreams are coming true
And now you wish they'd stayed inside you
Gwendal didn't hear me come in the door, I think he was on the phone upstairs. When he came into the room, he found me just sitting on the bed, and we hugged for the longest time...
I love you all. And I promise never, EVER to do that again...
(Song lyrics are from the songs "I Can Feel It", "Loosens," "Snowsuit Sound," and "Stand By Me, Yeah," by Sloan.)