F-a-b-o-l-o-u-s-!
These past two weeks have been very eventful. Last weekend was great. I went to Clinton with Jaz. I got to see Punkin - in a good way, too. Yes! It was awesome. I like him so much, but I know that we can never have anything serious. He doesn't seem like the serious type. He did tell me some things that his cousin told me he normally doesn't say to girls, so that made me happy. It boggled my head though because I just don't know what to think about the situation. I wish we were closer, but he is so hard to figure out, and I don't know how to talk to him about my feelings. I'm afraid I will scare him away. I don't think he will ever not want to talk to me though. He makes me happy. I'm smiling, just thinking about his cute little dances he does in the car and the way he says "that damn Marilyn" when I do something he likes. =) I miss him. I will see him next weekend though, hopefully!
And wow! I saw this guy at a party we went to Saturday night. He looked like my Ideal Guy. It was odd because I was eyeing him all night. And I kept telling Jaz how he looked like the perfect image of what I like. I was sitting in a chair, and he just came up to me and started dancing on me and giving me a lap dance. It was amazing. He smelt so great and I felt like I was in heaven. Haha. It was weird though because it's like he knew I had been eyeing him all night and that I wanted him! Then, he asked me to dance, so I did. I don't usually dance (which is something Jaz is helping me work on). I'm trying to learn to dance better so I can impress at parties. Hehe. Anyway - I got his number. His name is Marquice. And he obviously likes me a tad bit because he flirted with me the whole night and told me that I better call him. Well, I did call him, and I would like to get to know him better, but I can't get Punkin off of my mind. I'm confused. Something is telling me I'm wasting my time, but the other half of me doesn't want to give him up because I have fallen for him, and I think that's a bad thing. Ahh! I just don't know.
I sound horribly boy crazy. It's not that though. I'm just trying to decide what I want. I think I'm ready to have a boyfriend, but I'm not sure because I'm having fun with the way things are now. I kind of like being single and having freedom to do what I want, but then again it does get boring because I like having that someone, also. I'm sure time will work everything out. I'm just taking day by day and weekend by weekend.
Sunday is my birthday. I will be the big 18! I will finally be legal. *cheeses* I want to go do something "cool" next weekend, like go to a club, bar, or a "naughty" shop. But none of my friends are 18 yet, and I don't want to go by myself. What would be the fun in that? Damn, hurry up, Youngins!
And wow! I saw this guy at a party we went to Saturday night. He looked like my Ideal Guy. It was odd because I was eyeing him all night. And I kept telling Jaz how he looked like the perfect image of what I like. I was sitting in a chair, and he just came up to me and started dancing on me and giving me a lap dance. It was amazing. He smelt so great and I felt like I was in heaven. Haha. It was weird though because it's like he knew I had been eyeing him all night and that I wanted him! Then, he asked me to dance, so I did. I don't usually dance (which is something Jaz is helping me work on). I'm trying to learn to dance better so I can impress at parties. Hehe. Anyway - I got his number. His name is Marquice. And he obviously likes me a tad bit because he flirted with me the whole night and told me that I better call him. Well, I did call him, and I would like to get to know him better, but I can't get Punkin off of my mind. I'm confused. Something is telling me I'm wasting my time, but the other half of me doesn't want to give him up because I have fallen for him, and I think that's a bad thing. Ahh! I just don't know.
I sound horribly boy crazy. It's not that though. I'm just trying to decide what I want. I think I'm ready to have a boyfriend, but I'm not sure because I'm having fun with the way things are now. I kind of like being single and having freedom to do what I want, but then again it does get boring because I like having that someone, also. I'm sure time will work everything out. I'm just taking day by day and weekend by weekend.
Sunday is my birthday. I will be the big 18! I will finally be legal. *cheeses* I want to go do something "cool" next weekend, like go to a club, bar, or a "naughty" shop. But none of my friends are 18 yet, and I don't want to go by myself. What would be the fun in that? Damn, hurry up, Youngins!