Stop asking for more
I went shopping again with Erica today. I got me some bling bling. It's a silver microphone necklace, very thick. I'm so ICEY.
A whole bunch of my family went out to dinner tonight at McEllroys. The food was way too salty. I only ate my french fries and a few scallops. Too bad the prices are outrageous for crappy food. After dinner, my brother, Erica, and I went to the movies and saw Bad News Bears. It was a funny movie. I liked it a lot. Very racial though.
I feel like a big blob of shit right now. I feel useless. I'm so tired of people making me feel like scum. I hope to show everyone one day, but whenever they say these things to me it makes me feel like I will never amount to anything. I don't even know my purpose anymore. Ok, so I'm a singer? But I serve no other purpose. All I know to do is sing. I feel so lost. I drove around tonight by myself after dropping Erica off, and I started to cry. I did not listen to music the whole way (30 minutes). I just sat there, drove, and thought about life and where I'm going. Seems like nowhere. This is what people drill into my head. And it's very sad to say that all of this stress I'm talking about is from my own damn family. They seriously are the worse ones. And they seriously will never understand ME.
A whole bunch of my family went out to dinner tonight at McEllroys. The food was way too salty. I only ate my french fries and a few scallops. Too bad the prices are outrageous for crappy food. After dinner, my brother, Erica, and I went to the movies and saw Bad News Bears. It was a funny movie. I liked it a lot. Very racial though.
I feel like a big blob of shit right now. I feel useless. I'm so tired of people making me feel like scum. I hope to show everyone one day, but whenever they say these things to me it makes me feel like I will never amount to anything. I don't even know my purpose anymore. Ok, so I'm a singer? But I serve no other purpose. All I know to do is sing. I feel so lost. I drove around tonight by myself after dropping Erica off, and I started to cry. I did not listen to music the whole way (30 minutes). I just sat there, drove, and thought about life and where I'm going. Seems like nowhere. This is what people drill into my head. And it's very sad to say that all of this stress I'm talking about is from my own damn family. They seriously are the worse ones. And they seriously will never understand ME.