time and its passing

[marikkita]

People always say how fast time flies... i have always been aware of this but i guess since now i look forward to the 16th day of the month every month i'm noticing that time really is flying. In 14 days it is going to be Gene and my 6 month monthaversary. I still cannot believe that it has already been 6 months. Not only that... when i first met baby jacob he was still a baby... not eating super solid food, crawling and so on. Now he's a little boy. he can walk (and run) and he's talking and he's super smart and i'm in love with him. Through Gene I met Mel and she's very quickly turning into a very good friend of mine. I'm almost done with school (at least for now). IN about 3 months i have earned an AA from Mesa. Today i applied to SDSU and within 30 days i will hear from them and hopefully i'll get in. I had a very harsh wake up call in the last few days and it made me realize that i'm still not ready for a few things in life. There are still things i want to do before i'm ready to settle down and raise a family and stuff. I still can't believe that in less than 3 months i will be in EUROPE!!! it sill feels like sep 2007 when Kari and I started making plans for this trip and now it is so close i can almost feel it... I'm in love... it's the best thing ever. I absolutely love Gene to the ends of the Earth and back. I love what we have and what he has done for me. I have changed and now thanks to him i can get past my insecurities and see me and accept that i'm beautiful and sexy and attractive and all those things he says.

So this started as a specific post and now i'm not really sure where it went... oh well it's after 1 am and I really should be sleeping.

good night neverland
i love you
=)