I swear you'll be my angel

[marigoldplaybil]

I honestly don't know why I'm so sad lately but I feel like such a petty, useless waste of space. Every little thing's just built up and I don't know what to do about it and I just feel so fucking awful and like I'm by myself. For any of you guys reading this I love you okay? This'll probably be over soon but I'm just getting so sick of getting so sad or upset and then being fine and then it keeps going in circles and I don't wanna have to take this right now. It's so stupid and I know I'm not the only person like this but I'm sad and I don't know how to make it better. Maybe it's just gonna come but I feel like I've been just running out of people to talk to and now I feel like in some way I'm losing you guys too and it feels like exactly what I've been deserving and I haven't always liked myself this year. Last year, I wasn't much, I was scared and hurt and easy to break but I was a good person. This year I've been myself again but I don't always know if that's someone worth being and I barely even know where this is coming from, just stupid little things and it's nothing I haven't gone through before but why does it suck so much...
I'm gonna stop typing, I just needed to write something. sorry guys. yah. thanks