ridiculous.
i want to go to paris for like three weeks.
the girls at the table looked at me with cautious faces
i told them to clear my head.
you need to go all the way to paris to clear your head? why?
cause no one knows me in paris. no one will want to speak english with me in paris. paris is new to me. paris has lots of dirty little streets and pathways to get lost in. paris is paris.
otherwise i don't know why i want to go.
i dont want to see the eiffel tower or the louvre or fall in love with a stranger. or fall in dior.
but i do. because i am useless these days. i yield nothing to the world. i dont remember who i am. i dont like focusing on me. it hurts too much.
he told me stretching helps with creativity. he told me to sing and i couldnt. only hummed.
its sad when youre in love with someone but you are too numb to experience it.
along with every other emotion.
but that really is the strangest thing. i know that i am. but i wont let it colonize my body.
i use to be able to decipher things or to pick them apart. to pin point everything i felt. to know what was right and wrong. to execute all of my sentimental business. now i dont even know what to say to you half the time.
the girls at the table looked at me with cautious faces
i told them to clear my head.
you need to go all the way to paris to clear your head? why?
cause no one knows me in paris. no one will want to speak english with me in paris. paris is new to me. paris has lots of dirty little streets and pathways to get lost in. paris is paris.
otherwise i don't know why i want to go.
i dont want to see the eiffel tower or the louvre or fall in love with a stranger. or fall in dior.
but i do. because i am useless these days. i yield nothing to the world. i dont remember who i am. i dont like focusing on me. it hurts too much.
he told me stretching helps with creativity. he told me to sing and i couldnt. only hummed.
its sad when youre in love with someone but you are too numb to experience it.
along with every other emotion.
but that really is the strangest thing. i know that i am. but i wont let it colonize my body.
i use to be able to decipher things or to pick them apart. to pin point everything i felt. to know what was right and wrong. to execute all of my sentimental business. now i dont even know what to say to you half the time.