Sometimes I wonder...
If I'm not just a little bit masochistic. I know I can be a tad sadistic, yup I'm one of those people who would laugh a little at someone falling over on the street, but then I'd go help them. But when it comes to guys, I'm definitely masochistic. I fall hopelessly for the guy who ends up hurting me, because while he can't stay away from me just as much as I can't stay away from him, he isn't ready for a relationship, which ends up killing me and I end up with less than what I want, because to even have a small part of him is better than nothing at all.
But then, the good guys like Killian, the guy I met a few weeks ago, who are sweet & kind & loyal, well they just seem to hold nothing of appeal to me. Yes, they're willing to give me what I want in terms of a relationship, but they don't hold the passion and the excitement of the guy who I've hopelessly fallen for. I've been leaving this go on for way too long, over a year & a half now, even while I was in Australia he was all I could think of, but I don't know how to walk away from it. Like I said, even having a little part of him is better than having nothing of him.
But then, the good guys like Killian, the guy I met a few weeks ago, who are sweet & kind & loyal, well they just seem to hold nothing of appeal to me. Yes, they're willing to give me what I want in terms of a relationship, but they don't hold the passion and the excitement of the guy who I've hopelessly fallen for. I've been leaving this go on for way too long, over a year & a half now, even while I was in Australia he was all I could think of, but I don't know how to walk away from it. Like I said, even having a little part of him is better than having nothing of him.