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i got my first purchase from anthropologie today. im veeeeery excited. its a really great dress. it looks like someone took a paintbrush and watercolored blue and a few pink strokes all over it. it is GORGEOUS. i love it i love it i love it.
okay i found an okay picture of it:
so yea. im pumped. im going to wear it until its too cold. we're talking everyday. need less to say im excited. IT WAS SUCH A DEAL THOUGH. $20!!!! COME ON!!! oooo i love it.
anyways, other than schnazzy new dress, i am in an ultimate funk. school distracted me enough this week but things only went downhill. sean told jessica he still wants to move out (in 2 weeks which by now is like... one...) and i had quite the little conflict with my gen ed math this semester. so you see, this dress is about all ive got right now. i may or may not be making everything eric does into "annoying things". and i just keep snapping and getting really crabby and rolling my eyes. maybe im just fed up with it. maybe we just need a little space. maybe this was a mistake. i dont know. i dont know how i feel about much of anything lately. i feel pretty empty and vacant. this whole thing with jessica and sean has really embittered me. and my roommate steve and his girlfriend rachael broke up. they had been dating a bit longer than eric and i but there are some similarities and some things steve had mentioned about it are resonating with me a bit, ive found. makes me worry. its like this cancer or something. its getting bigger, all these negative feelings i keep having about him and i cant tell if its self perpetuated or not. and if it is, why the hell am i doing this? god, i just dont know. i need answers. immediately. to everything. ever.
okay i found an okay picture of it:
so yea. im pumped. im going to wear it until its too cold. we're talking everyday. need less to say im excited. IT WAS SUCH A DEAL THOUGH. $20!!!! COME ON!!! oooo i love it.
anyways, other than schnazzy new dress, i am in an ultimate funk. school distracted me enough this week but things only went downhill. sean told jessica he still wants to move out (in 2 weeks which by now is like... one...) and i had quite the little conflict with my gen ed math this semester. so you see, this dress is about all ive got right now. i may or may not be making everything eric does into "annoying things". and i just keep snapping and getting really crabby and rolling my eyes. maybe im just fed up with it. maybe we just need a little space. maybe this was a mistake. i dont know. i dont know how i feel about much of anything lately. i feel pretty empty and vacant. this whole thing with jessica and sean has really embittered me. and my roommate steve and his girlfriend rachael broke up. they had been dating a bit longer than eric and i but there are some similarities and some things steve had mentioned about it are resonating with me a bit, ive found. makes me worry. its like this cancer or something. its getting bigger, all these negative feelings i keep having about him and i cant tell if its self perpetuated or not. and if it is, why the hell am i doing this? god, i just dont know. i need answers. immediately. to everything. ever.