NaNo Craziness and Doctors
I am knuckles deep in NaNoWriMo and struggling pretty hard with it. I'm not sure where it is going and I'm finding a lot of dark scary places in my head.
My daughter is a treasure and having her visit is brilliant. She has picked out the fabrics she wants for her wedding dress and we've ordered them. Then we will start working on the pattern. This is a great project.
The christening gown is going slow, but I've got a wee bit of time yet.
Today I have an appointment to see my surgeon. I believe it is just a status check type appointment. But part of me is really scared about it. I don't want to know how much worse things are going to get before this kills me. Yet part of me wants to be prepared.
I'm worried about what will happen to my husband and daughter. I know I'm not the only person in their lives, but it is hard to think of myself as missing.
I'm not sure how much of my feelings are really mine and how much of them are muddled from the pain meds I take all the time.
I need to do something nice for myself today.
My daughter is a treasure and having her visit is brilliant. She has picked out the fabrics she wants for her wedding dress and we've ordered them. Then we will start working on the pattern. This is a great project.
The christening gown is going slow, but I've got a wee bit of time yet.
Today I have an appointment to see my surgeon. I believe it is just a status check type appointment. But part of me is really scared about it. I don't want to know how much worse things are going to get before this kills me. Yet part of me wants to be prepared.
I'm worried about what will happen to my husband and daughter. I know I'm not the only person in their lives, but it is hard to think of myself as missing.
I'm not sure how much of my feelings are really mine and how much of them are muddled from the pain meds I take all the time.
I need to do something nice for myself today.