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So. I've been avoiding posting for a while. The main reason being that I was too busy over the last week or so. Chris was over, had loads of exams and assignments due, was living in Renfrew without internet and constantly driving to and from Ottawa and also working. Things have changed dramatically in the past 2 days but I will get into that later on.
Chris being here was incredible. It was like a reminder of what being truly happy feels like. I thought I was happy enough with things the way they were but that's just because you get used to things. You forget what things used to be like. The feeing was so intense that I was considering dropping everything I have here (a program that I love and am doing very well in) to go back to England with him to work in some hotel or restaurant. Now of course this would not have been a smart thing to do considering how much money and time I've already invested in this program but in the back of my mind, there is still a little voice screaming, "Just go!"
Picking Chris up at the airport was like one of those clips in the movies. I don't mean to get overly sentimental but it was just an incredible feeling. I think I will always be able to picture that moment perfectly. During his stay, we were only separated when I was in class or at work. He came with me to school and wandered around the mall when I was working. He kept me company on the long drives. We spent last Friday night in Ottawa for our birthday. Had a nice meal and some desert and stayed in a hotel. It was wonderful. Sunday (the day Chris left) was one of the most difficult days ever. We spent a long time wandering around the airport. Browsing the gift shops and crying lots. He bought me flowers which made me cry more and then he was gone. I cried all the way to Renfrew. The loud, embarassing kind of crying. Had a slice of pizza, finished an assignment for school and then cried some more until I fell asleep. A bit embarassing but there it is, I'm not going to lie.
Monday I left my car in Renfrew and Brian drove me to the bus stop with three bags of stuff to begin my new car-free life in Ottawa. I moved in with a family. The rent is cheap and includes everything. I pay much less for rent than I did for gas and I don't have to drive for 2 hours a day. The main problem is that I get very lonely. When I used to get home, I would get a big hug from Elyssa and talk to Vicky. Still... it is worth it. I also don't have to worry about being a burden to Vicky and Brian.
So that's pretty much it. I've spent the evening talking on msn and watching stand up on YouTube. (By the way, if you are a Dylan Moran fan, he has a new show called "Like, Totally". I highly recommend it if you haven't seen it already.) Time for bed. I have an early day tomorrow.
Chris being here was incredible. It was like a reminder of what being truly happy feels like. I thought I was happy enough with things the way they were but that's just because you get used to things. You forget what things used to be like. The feeing was so intense that I was considering dropping everything I have here (a program that I love and am doing very well in) to go back to England with him to work in some hotel or restaurant. Now of course this would not have been a smart thing to do considering how much money and time I've already invested in this program but in the back of my mind, there is still a little voice screaming, "Just go!"
Picking Chris up at the airport was like one of those clips in the movies. I don't mean to get overly sentimental but it was just an incredible feeling. I think I will always be able to picture that moment perfectly. During his stay, we were only separated when I was in class or at work. He came with me to school and wandered around the mall when I was working. He kept me company on the long drives. We spent last Friday night in Ottawa for our birthday. Had a nice meal and some desert and stayed in a hotel. It was wonderful. Sunday (the day Chris left) was one of the most difficult days ever. We spent a long time wandering around the airport. Browsing the gift shops and crying lots. He bought me flowers which made me cry more and then he was gone. I cried all the way to Renfrew. The loud, embarassing kind of crying. Had a slice of pizza, finished an assignment for school and then cried some more until I fell asleep. A bit embarassing but there it is, I'm not going to lie.
Monday I left my car in Renfrew and Brian drove me to the bus stop with three bags of stuff to begin my new car-free life in Ottawa. I moved in with a family. The rent is cheap and includes everything. I pay much less for rent than I did for gas and I don't have to drive for 2 hours a day. The main problem is that I get very lonely. When I used to get home, I would get a big hug from Elyssa and talk to Vicky. Still... it is worth it. I also don't have to worry about being a burden to Vicky and Brian.
So that's pretty much it. I've spent the evening talking on msn and watching stand up on YouTube. (By the way, if you are a Dylan Moran fan, he has a new show called "Like, Totally". I highly recommend it if you haven't seen it already.) Time for bed. I have an early day tomorrow.