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hello lovelies.
hope everyone is having a wonderful day. Today is offiial binge day, and I've been doing so well that past couple of days. sigh.
it was during lunch, and idk why I did it. I opened a bag of hot cheetos and just smelled them, and next thing you know my hand reached out.. and it was in my mouth... and BAM! that's how the binge started, followed by half a chicken sandwhich, a granola bar, nonfat yogurt, fat free chocolate milk and when i went home, 8 buffalo chicken wings. ughhhhh........... it was a horrible train of though, I thought "well I already screwed up, might as well eat whatever I want now. I'm drinking sweetened iced tea as we speak. and making chocolate truffles as well. they're in the freezer cooling.
god god god, I'm not going to eat them, I swore to myself I would stop purging. But why does it matter now? if I eeat them or not? I already maxxed out my calories into the next century.
probably gained a pound, and I was so close to 99 lbs. too.
hardest thing to do is come back from a binge the next day, it's like taking one step forward, and then seven steps back.
hope everyone is having a wonderful day. Today is offiial binge day, and I've been doing so well that past couple of days. sigh.
it was during lunch, and idk why I did it. I opened a bag of hot cheetos and just smelled them, and next thing you know my hand reached out.. and it was in my mouth... and BAM! that's how the binge started, followed by half a chicken sandwhich, a granola bar, nonfat yogurt, fat free chocolate milk and when i went home, 8 buffalo chicken wings. ughhhhh........... it was a horrible train of though, I thought "well I already screwed up, might as well eat whatever I want now. I'm drinking sweetened iced tea as we speak. and making chocolate truffles as well. they're in the freezer cooling.
god god god, I'm not going to eat them, I swore to myself I would stop purging. But why does it matter now? if I eeat them or not? I already maxxed out my calories into the next century.
probably gained a pound, and I was so close to 99 lbs. too.
hardest thing to do is come back from a binge the next day, it's like taking one step forward, and then seven steps back.