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This weather makes me feel sick and dead.
The sun was so refreshing yesterday; saying that makes me feel like my grandmother.
The days are flying by, each one more or less the same as the last, but in a good way.
I feel bad; my parents miss me so much it's kind of embarassing that I never see them. I should really put in more of an effort. The older I get, the more I realize just how shitty we are to our parents, even if they are "psychos" or "nazis" or whatever dictatorial name we decide to give them.
I've been actually making an effort with myself lately, and it feels so good. I've been writing, reading, and drawing more, and I'm proud of myself for actually getting around to doing those things that I haven't done in months. I've stopped haranguing myself about not getting up early enough to get stuff done because I've decided that it's more important that I get plenty of sleep. I feel like, for once, I've stopped turning everything into a good decision or a bad decision, and just accepted that there's a lot of fucking gray, and everything we do can be viewed as either good or bad, depending on the point of view. The movie Happenstance really goes to prove (in my opinion) that it doesn't really matter what we do, as long as we're doing what we want to do for the moment. Unexpected circumstances come around, and things don't turn out the way you want them to, but you keep moving, and before you know it, the good times have come back around. I just love that beautiful balance in life.
There's a lot of people I'm suppossed to call to hang out with this weekend, and it's crazy always trying to find time to call more than the 4 or 5 people I talk to every single day. There's just not enough time. I really wish I could dedicate more time out of my life for being there for my friends. Sure, my cell phone is always on (except when it's in Indiana), but sometimes people need reaching out to. Sometimes it's not enough to just keep your phone on.
In other news, I am so fucking sick and tired of older men hitting on me. It's always been like this, and I'm SO sick of it. The weird part of it all is that, as a rule, I tend to prefer being around older people than younger people, but once they start hitting on me I just don't want them around anymore. However, with younger people, it's always fun to flirt a little more and not think twice about it. ;>
Sigh. I'm typing my thoughts out now. Time to stop.
The sun was so refreshing yesterday; saying that makes me feel like my grandmother.
The days are flying by, each one more or less the same as the last, but in a good way.
I feel bad; my parents miss me so much it's kind of embarassing that I never see them. I should really put in more of an effort. The older I get, the more I realize just how shitty we are to our parents, even if they are "psychos" or "nazis" or whatever dictatorial name we decide to give them.
I've been actually making an effort with myself lately, and it feels so good. I've been writing, reading, and drawing more, and I'm proud of myself for actually getting around to doing those things that I haven't done in months. I've stopped haranguing myself about not getting up early enough to get stuff done because I've decided that it's more important that I get plenty of sleep. I feel like, for once, I've stopped turning everything into a good decision or a bad decision, and just accepted that there's a lot of fucking gray, and everything we do can be viewed as either good or bad, depending on the point of view. The movie Happenstance really goes to prove (in my opinion) that it doesn't really matter what we do, as long as we're doing what we want to do for the moment. Unexpected circumstances come around, and things don't turn out the way you want them to, but you keep moving, and before you know it, the good times have come back around. I just love that beautiful balance in life.
There's a lot of people I'm suppossed to call to hang out with this weekend, and it's crazy always trying to find time to call more than the 4 or 5 people I talk to every single day. There's just not enough time. I really wish I could dedicate more time out of my life for being there for my friends. Sure, my cell phone is always on (except when it's in Indiana), but sometimes people need reaching out to. Sometimes it's not enough to just keep your phone on.
In other news, I am so fucking sick and tired of older men hitting on me. It's always been like this, and I'm SO sick of it. The weird part of it all is that, as a rule, I tend to prefer being around older people than younger people, but once they start hitting on me I just don't want them around anymore. However, with younger people, it's always fun to flirt a little more and not think twice about it. ;>
Sigh. I'm typing my thoughts out now. Time to stop.