this sucks
so im happy, and busy and what not..but i miss being in love...
i was going through my old journal and i came across this one..it was intense
"I need to point out how much I love Mark. Yesterday I drove out to his neck of the woods, bought some dinner and we had lunch out on his patio next to the lake....It was nice..... He kept looking at me and goofing around. He makes me laugh so much...After dinner we went back into the main room and we just started hugging and kissing and then we rolled onto the floor just playing around and we stopped and he looked at me and said "I love you, Mari*"
Im sorry, as cheesy as this sounds...we argue alot, but there are these moments when everything around me seems to stop and its just me and him...Later I was laying on the couch and he was on his computer downloading a movie for us to whatch, and he comes over and just lies on top of me holding me so close, and he goes "I cant wait till were together in our own house, I love you" It was so sweet. We do fight alot. I said "Mark I know we fight over stupid things, but I love you and I dont think Ive ever loved someone so much..." he said "I dont think I have either" I didnt say anything but, you see...Ive been in love before, yes, but with mark...I realize that you truly and whole-heartedly love someone when you can accept their flaws, get mad at them, and work things out in the end despite it all. Mark and I live an hour apart, and while it sucks...Its made me realize how much I love him...how much I miss him when hes gone...and then we have our moments, where all the arguments and misunderstandings are just so petty and the world seems like a better place...
...I know, I know...Im a hopeless romantic..but we do love each other so much...Its little things, you know? I mean I do alot of driving now, because i have a car thats great on gas and well, mark has to save up...which is cool...but its little things i love, like when Im laying on the couch whatching tv with him and he just grabs me a girly beer because he knows I love them, or when he gets up at 7:00 am(even though HE doesnt have anywhere to go) with me when I have to drive back home early and he makes me coffee. Its little things like that. Yesterday it was so nice out and we were hanging around and he goes..."Mari do you want a popsicle?! or an ice-cream sandwhich!?...because I got the kind your mom buys so that you can have them here too"
That made me melt....Im at a loss for words...
<3
Mari*"
reading this entry made me realize how ridiculously in love i was with mark, and sometimes i miss him, even though its been...what, 5 months? and even though we dont talk..its pretty pathetic huh..
the worst is, i cant seem to get involved with anyone..ive had guys hit on me and what not, but im so choosey and i dont want to settle...for anything less than butterflies...
ugh, what a sad sad entry...
i was going through my old journal and i came across this one..it was intense
"I need to point out how much I love Mark. Yesterday I drove out to his neck of the woods, bought some dinner and we had lunch out on his patio next to the lake....It was nice..... He kept looking at me and goofing around. He makes me laugh so much...After dinner we went back into the main room and we just started hugging and kissing and then we rolled onto the floor just playing around and we stopped and he looked at me and said "I love you, Mari*"
Im sorry, as cheesy as this sounds...we argue alot, but there are these moments when everything around me seems to stop and its just me and him...Later I was laying on the couch and he was on his computer downloading a movie for us to whatch, and he comes over and just lies on top of me holding me so close, and he goes "I cant wait till were together in our own house, I love you" It was so sweet. We do fight alot. I said "Mark I know we fight over stupid things, but I love you and I dont think Ive ever loved someone so much..." he said "I dont think I have either" I didnt say anything but, you see...Ive been in love before, yes, but with mark...I realize that you truly and whole-heartedly love someone when you can accept their flaws, get mad at them, and work things out in the end despite it all. Mark and I live an hour apart, and while it sucks...Its made me realize how much I love him...how much I miss him when hes gone...and then we have our moments, where all the arguments and misunderstandings are just so petty and the world seems like a better place...
...I know, I know...Im a hopeless romantic..but we do love each other so much...Its little things, you know? I mean I do alot of driving now, because i have a car thats great on gas and well, mark has to save up...which is cool...but its little things i love, like when Im laying on the couch whatching tv with him and he just grabs me a girly beer because he knows I love them, or when he gets up at 7:00 am(even though HE doesnt have anywhere to go) with me when I have to drive back home early and he makes me coffee. Its little things like that. Yesterday it was so nice out and we were hanging around and he goes..."Mari do you want a popsicle?! or an ice-cream sandwhich!?...because I got the kind your mom buys so that you can have them here too"
That made me melt....Im at a loss for words...
<3
Mari*"
reading this entry made me realize how ridiculously in love i was with mark, and sometimes i miss him, even though its been...what, 5 months? and even though we dont talk..its pretty pathetic huh..
the worst is, i cant seem to get involved with anyone..ive had guys hit on me and what not, but im so choosey and i dont want to settle...for anything less than butterflies...
ugh, what a sad sad entry...