Thinking.
I have come to the conclusion that no one uses livejournal or at least updates.
Understanding ones self is important, and periodically you think you have it throughout your life. And periodically you don't have it. And you spend your time back at square one. And then you spend time with your "new self" and then back at square one... repeat process... I just want to find a "me" I'm happy with. I want wake up everything single morning look in a mirror and say, "yup! That's me :)".... but I'm not anywhere near that point. I only see part of a person I want to be and a part of me I have to detach from. Part of me wants to be that person but I'm not ready. The only thing I'm sure of is that it will take time to achieve that. And I'm willing to do the work.
I also want to find my other half but I have a feeling that if I did he wouldn't like me very much. I'm not fully the person I want to be so naturally if I did meet him it would ruin everything. I just hope I can change enough so that he will see it too....
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Understanding ones self is important, and periodically you think you have it throughout your life. And periodically you don't have it. And you spend your time back at square one. And then you spend time with your "new self" and then back at square one... repeat process... I just want to find a "me" I'm happy with. I want wake up everything single morning look in a mirror and say, "yup! That's me :)".... but I'm not anywhere near that point. I only see part of a person I want to be and a part of me I have to detach from. Part of me wants to be that person but I'm not ready. The only thing I'm sure of is that it will take time to achieve that. And I'm willing to do the work.
I also want to find my other half but I have a feeling that if I did he wouldn't like me very much. I'm not fully the person I want to be so naturally if I did meet him it would ruin everything. I just hope I can change enough so that he will see it too....
Posted via Vita for iPhone.