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Maybe the reason I'm not friends with any one I've dated is because I am afraid there may be a repeat, or that I will still like them to a point were it hurts not being with them. Or maybe I'm just weak willed and would end up wanting them again, in some cases, granted we all know why I'm not friends with ted any more. I guess its just a self preservation thing. Or maybe I'm just disgusted by what I've done (hehehe) or maybe I just don't want to be reminded of the crap I let people do to me. Or maybe I just feel like they are just supper creepy and I cringe when I see them so why would I want to talk to them.
What ever the reason is its a fact that I don't talk to any of the boys I've been with. I regret it sometimes but other times I Know its necessary. All my relationships have been painful, why would I want to remember them by talking to the boys that caused the pain? I havn't had a relationship were a guy has been good to me, where its ended because the feelings were just mutually not there.
And If some one breaks my heart over and over again when its over I'm not going to try and talk to them. Thats just way to door mat like even for me.
What ever the reason is its a fact that I don't talk to any of the boys I've been with. I regret it sometimes but other times I Know its necessary. All my relationships have been painful, why would I want to remember them by talking to the boys that caused the pain? I havn't had a relationship were a guy has been good to me, where its ended because the feelings were just mutually not there.
And If some one breaks my heart over and over again when its over I'm not going to try and talk to them. Thats just way to door mat like even for me.