Buffaloaf!
Recipe
Wow, so good! Moist and spicy and sweet and awesome! Accompanied by garlic mashed potatoes (farmers' market) and Darin's apple strudel-something with ice cream. YUM.
Also, according to a guy at work, I have a very prominent bright blue-purple aura. The Internet tells me this means I am "clairvoyant; highly spiritual nature; generous; on the right path; new opportunities are coming". This sounds promising! I really like that part about "on the right path" with "new opportunities" coming-- maybe all this existential angst about what to do with my life is actually leading somewhere productive. I hope.
Have I mentioned on here that I'm not sure I want to be a conventional teacher? And by that I don't just mean I want to be a cool rebel teacher; I mean I don't know if teaching in a classroom, in a school, is the right place for me, or a place where I can do the kind of teaching I want to do, or where my students will be able to do the kind of learning I want them to do. I've been reading a lot about homeschooling, and what I'd really like to be is a stay-at-home mom, homeschooling my kids and any kids in the neighborhood who want to join in. Problems: I am not married, I am not a mom, and my non-existent husband cannot financially support me in that endeavor. Interestingly enough, when I tried to explain the kind of teaching I want to do to Darin, he likened it to being a librarian, which as you know, is on the list of potential careers, if I first attend library school. St. Kate's has a Master's of Library Science program starting in January, which I would have to apply to before October. Problem: it's $733 per credit. One course is about three credits, not to mention money for books, transportation, etc. I would still need some kind of job to pay the bills. A plus, though, is that enrolling there would further defer my student loans.
So many variables! The best I can do is trust that I am, somehow, going in the right direction, even though it doesn't feel like I'm making any progress. It's hard to justify the fact that I am not actively searching out teaching jobs for the fall, especially when everyone I know (in the education realm, anyway) is going crazy trying to do just that. I feel like I need something different, but I don't know what that is yet, but I'm confident that it will come along in time. Is that insane? Is it crazy to wait for the right thing to come to me? My intuition says that it will work out (past evidence also shows this; last summer I found a perfect temporary apartment after procrastinating looking for a long time; student teaching worked out even though I dreaded it and put off doing stuff with it; etc.), but I'm having trouble convincing my extremely logical left brain that this is true. Lefty is also upset because she's used to being in control, and now she's not, entirely. Ugh, my brain, it is a strange place to visit.
Wow, so good! Moist and spicy and sweet and awesome! Accompanied by garlic mashed potatoes (farmers' market) and Darin's apple strudel-something with ice cream. YUM.
Also, according to a guy at work, I have a very prominent bright blue-purple aura. The Internet tells me this means I am "clairvoyant; highly spiritual nature; generous; on the right path; new opportunities are coming". This sounds promising! I really like that part about "on the right path" with "new opportunities" coming-- maybe all this existential angst about what to do with my life is actually leading somewhere productive. I hope.
Have I mentioned on here that I'm not sure I want to be a conventional teacher? And by that I don't just mean I want to be a cool rebel teacher; I mean I don't know if teaching in a classroom, in a school, is the right place for me, or a place where I can do the kind of teaching I want to do, or where my students will be able to do the kind of learning I want them to do. I've been reading a lot about homeschooling, and what I'd really like to be is a stay-at-home mom, homeschooling my kids and any kids in the neighborhood who want to join in. Problems: I am not married, I am not a mom, and my non-existent husband cannot financially support me in that endeavor. Interestingly enough, when I tried to explain the kind of teaching I want to do to Darin, he likened it to being a librarian, which as you know, is on the list of potential careers, if I first attend library school. St. Kate's has a Master's of Library Science program starting in January, which I would have to apply to before October. Problem: it's $733 per credit. One course is about three credits, not to mention money for books, transportation, etc. I would still need some kind of job to pay the bills. A plus, though, is that enrolling there would further defer my student loans.
So many variables! The best I can do is trust that I am, somehow, going in the right direction, even though it doesn't feel like I'm making any progress. It's hard to justify the fact that I am not actively searching out teaching jobs for the fall, especially when everyone I know (in the education realm, anyway) is going crazy trying to do just that. I feel like I need something different, but I don't know what that is yet, but I'm confident that it will come along in time. Is that insane? Is it crazy to wait for the right thing to come to me? My intuition says that it will work out (past evidence also shows this; last summer I found a perfect temporary apartment after procrastinating looking for a long time; student teaching worked out even though I dreaded it and put off doing stuff with it; etc.), but I'm having trouble convincing my extremely logical left brain that this is true. Lefty is also upset because she's used to being in control, and now she's not, entirely. Ugh, my brain, it is a strange place to visit.