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So not much going on today :/ watched dance flick with casper but he kept falling asleep haha it was cute :) he has a puppy named Lily and she was curled right up underneath him :3 AAA ha ha
Well my mom is getting her phone today which I will have to help her out with it lolz
Ohhh and my step mom,kami, got my dad a new cell phone so now he's texting me which will hopefully, in a strange way, bring us closer :) my dad and I don't usually see eye to eye on everything but he's trying to be supportive of my decisions. Its hard for him though when his wife is bitching at him about me and how screwed up I am 24/7. >:( beeetch haha
Oh and I'm realllly starting to loose it. I'm not the type to bottle my emotions and I'm forcing myself to do that now... EVERYDAY :( last night I ran into my bathroom and sobbed for a good 5 minutes. But afterwards, I totally went numb. That's what's been happening after I cry lately which is reeeeeally weird for me. I know why I'm crying too... Hearing a certain someone tell me he loves me in his sleep then hearing him say he didn't mean it the next morning is a constant slap in my face almost every other day. BUT, I'm tryyying to be as patient as I can be. I've learned that patience is greatly rewarded :) he kisses me now, but not just when he wants to but if I want to now ^w^ im sooooooooo happy :) but idk, I'm afraid to tell him I love him cause I don't want to ruin things but at the same time I'm 99.9% positive he loves me :/ I know, I'm confusing :p
Well whatever happens things between me and him will be okay, he's my best friend and that will never change <3
Well I think that's enough for now :)
G'day mates :)
Well my mom is getting her phone today which I will have to help her out with it lolz
Ohhh and my step mom,kami, got my dad a new cell phone so now he's texting me which will hopefully, in a strange way, bring us closer :) my dad and I don't usually see eye to eye on everything but he's trying to be supportive of my decisions. Its hard for him though when his wife is bitching at him about me and how screwed up I am 24/7. >:( beeetch haha
Oh and I'm realllly starting to loose it. I'm not the type to bottle my emotions and I'm forcing myself to do that now... EVERYDAY :( last night I ran into my bathroom and sobbed for a good 5 minutes. But afterwards, I totally went numb. That's what's been happening after I cry lately which is reeeeeally weird for me. I know why I'm crying too... Hearing a certain someone tell me he loves me in his sleep then hearing him say he didn't mean it the next morning is a constant slap in my face almost every other day. BUT, I'm tryyying to be as patient as I can be. I've learned that patience is greatly rewarded :) he kisses me now, but not just when he wants to but if I want to now ^w^ im sooooooooo happy :) but idk, I'm afraid to tell him I love him cause I don't want to ruin things but at the same time I'm 99.9% positive he loves me :/ I know, I'm confusing :p
Well whatever happens things between me and him will be okay, he's my best friend and that will never change <3
Well I think that's enough for now :)
G'day mates :)