Relationships and feelings
Going out with Calvin is cool, and it's been fun for the past week.. but then I feel that because of me, he's changed his habits. He's got so much stuff to do yet he still wants to come out to see me. I should feel happy because he's doing this, but I don't need this and I don't want him to. I want him to finish his work first then come out. I don't want him to delay anything because of a new relationship.
Yesterday, he came to pick me up from real estate and then we went to have dinner. I should be happy that he wants to spend time with me, but for some reason, I wasn't extremely happy because of a few reasons. I was so tired. I didn't sleep well the day before and work was boring. I thought he was going to come and drop me my stuff and then go home to study. I didn't expect to see him the whole week, however, some how, he showed up.
I felt weird, because some person is trying to come into my life and try to help me do things I'm usually independent of doing. Driving me home because it was raining and my stuff was heavy....... Thanks Calvin, I really appreciate it, but I don't need it and I feel that I need my own lil space. I was going to rest and then maybe go home or go out with Angel. I didn't want to think about where to eat and what to eat.... and I didn't want to listen to someone talk and have to concentrate.
I told me uncle and Angel about it. They both said that I should talk to him about it. Maybe I will.... on a really good day. Maybe this weekend? I don't know. I like taking care of myself. I don't need someone to take care of me like that..... I have my own life and I am independent. Do you understand what I mean?
hmm....
One the other hand, I really need to start looking for a job and to look for new housing. I have made my goals.
- Have a house by next weekend.
- Have found a job by middle of May!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Calvin, please finish your work then come out and chill... that's what I need you to do. Please... I miss you and want you to come out so we can hug and relax. Let's wait till the weekend. One or two days out of the week is okay, but let's finish what we really have to do first, okay? :)
Yesterday, he came to pick me up from real estate and then we went to have dinner. I should be happy that he wants to spend time with me, but for some reason, I wasn't extremely happy because of a few reasons. I was so tired. I didn't sleep well the day before and work was boring. I thought he was going to come and drop me my stuff and then go home to study. I didn't expect to see him the whole week, however, some how, he showed up.
I felt weird, because some person is trying to come into my life and try to help me do things I'm usually independent of doing. Driving me home because it was raining and my stuff was heavy....... Thanks Calvin, I really appreciate it, but I don't need it and I feel that I need my own lil space. I was going to rest and then maybe go home or go out with Angel. I didn't want to think about where to eat and what to eat.... and I didn't want to listen to someone talk and have to concentrate.
I told me uncle and Angel about it. They both said that I should talk to him about it. Maybe I will.... on a really good day. Maybe this weekend? I don't know. I like taking care of myself. I don't need someone to take care of me like that..... I have my own life and I am independent. Do you understand what I mean?
hmm....
One the other hand, I really need to start looking for a job and to look for new housing. I have made my goals.
- Have a house by next weekend.
- Have found a job by middle of May!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Calvin, please finish your work then come out and chill... that's what I need you to do. Please... I miss you and want you to come out so we can hug and relax. Let's wait till the weekend. One or two days out of the week is okay, but let's finish what we really have to do first, okay? :)