What's my function in life?
It's not only because of what my friend Abbie wrote the other day. Also not because of the fact, that a guy, whom I thought I knew well, turned out to be a writer; and he's in the middle of his third novel. Also the fact, that one of my dearest friends, that will remain a mysterious H. here, got the second volume of her art published.
It's all of those things. And the fact, that I know nothing about my future, my plans a week from now.... I just- DON'T KNOW.
And I can't do anything.
Except from listening to people, who congratulate me on the new, promising and fruit-bringing course of my life. But is it really the course, that I wanted?...
Or am I just being lazy? Maybe I am actually very well prepared to live my life NOW, not- "someday". But then- what about my living; my apartment; my earnings; blah blah. Gods... I need a liquor XD
Maybe it's only a typical, spring-time frustration: you can feel the fresh air, and blood is running faster in your veins, only- there's no way you can let the feeling of power and creativity flow, since you don't know, what your future ( of a very near future) whereabouts may be.
Can I make a late new-year's vow?
I will accomplish something really important for me this year. And this is official now. >_
It's all of those things. And the fact, that I know nothing about my future, my plans a week from now.... I just- DON'T KNOW.
And I can't do anything.
Except from listening to people, who congratulate me on the new, promising and fruit-bringing course of my life. But is it really the course, that I wanted?...
Or am I just being lazy? Maybe I am actually very well prepared to live my life NOW, not- "someday". But then- what about my living; my apartment; my earnings; blah blah. Gods... I need a liquor XD
Maybe it's only a typical, spring-time frustration: you can feel the fresh air, and blood is running faster in your veins, only- there's no way you can let the feeling of power and creativity flow, since you don't know, what your future ( of a very near future) whereabouts may be.
Can I make a late new-year's vow?
I will accomplish something really important for me this year. And this is official now. >_