atheism

[margueriteyang]

Being an atheist is fucking hard. I have to deal with the fact that my sister has died and is forever gone. I've tried to believe otherwise but I just can't. I know she has become nothing. She's not reincarnated into a flower and she's not an angel looking after me. She's not going to make me win the lottery if I pray to her. She's just ashes matter, buried with our dad's ashes. It's fucking depressing. I'm not saying I'm better than everyone else for being an atheist. I just think my reality is harder and colder. Sometimes I talk to her out loud, just in case I might be wrong about atheism.

At least she will be alive in my heart and in my head as long as I'm still alive. Gotta make the best out it while I'm still organic matter.