temptation
well yesterday i went to toronto to see dan and then adrian. well chilling with mike and em was super killer and chilling with dan was nice too. that kid is such a fucker but what can i say, i love that fucker. lol. call me crazy, i know it's true. anyways, so after smoking a lot of dope and drinking some beers i headed over to adrian's house. well old habits die hard. it didn't take long before we started kissing. i wasn't sure if kissing him would feel good anymore, but it did. it was jsut as passionate as it was before. i missed it. i think there were certain things i took for granted with him. kissing him, definitly one of those things. so then we head to ash's house and adrian gives me money to get more booze. so we chilled there for a couple of hours and watched this porn like show on showcase with lesbians. it was HAWT. so then around 12ish adrian and i depart back to his house.
well it didnt' take long before we started taking off each other's clothes. it didnt' take long for me to feel all those great sensations rush back. letting him back inside of me in that way was very difficult and yet so beautiful. so we had the most amazing sex which lasted forever and i was jsut paralyzed after. i guess after feeling so many great sensations in that period of time was too much for my body to handle. then when we cuddled there beside each other he told me that he really cherishes those moments that he has with me. it was nice to hear that, but i am still trying to figure out if it was the truth. apparently make-up sex is not just the best type fo sex, but also teh most addictive. my body is more drained that i could have imagined. but i would do it all again. being with him creates this thirst inside of me and i just want more and more. i guess i just feed off of the great vibes i get from being intimate with him.
but now i am left here wondering if it's a good or bad thign that i felt all those emotions again, so soon. it's good because it means that those feelings were there before. but it's bad because i don't want to fall back into things with him again, that easily. whatever. i am enjoying the good times that i have and i am trying to not analyze every word, breath, movement.
it will still take more time. but i do know for sure now, that i do want things to work. and so does he. i guess that's all i need for right now.
well it didnt' take long before we started taking off each other's clothes. it didnt' take long for me to feel all those great sensations rush back. letting him back inside of me in that way was very difficult and yet so beautiful. so we had the most amazing sex which lasted forever and i was jsut paralyzed after. i guess after feeling so many great sensations in that period of time was too much for my body to handle. then when we cuddled there beside each other he told me that he really cherishes those moments that he has with me. it was nice to hear that, but i am still trying to figure out if it was the truth. apparently make-up sex is not just the best type fo sex, but also teh most addictive. my body is more drained that i could have imagined. but i would do it all again. being with him creates this thirst inside of me and i just want more and more. i guess i just feed off of the great vibes i get from being intimate with him.
but now i am left here wondering if it's a good or bad thign that i felt all those emotions again, so soon. it's good because it means that those feelings were there before. but it's bad because i don't want to fall back into things with him again, that easily. whatever. i am enjoying the good times that i have and i am trying to not analyze every word, breath, movement.
it will still take more time. but i do know for sure now, that i do want things to work. and so does he. i guess that's all i need for right now.