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Everything seems but nothing truly is and that my friends, sucks huge ass monkey balls.
People want to hang out with me but I'm really just not in the mood. Sometimes I feel like I enjoy being depressed, I seem to be quite often. Only when the public is gone, does it show. Nobody likes being bothered with questions like "What's wrong? Are you sure everything's okay? Hey, do you want to talk?" It's all so FUCKING annoying.
Though I must say, I feel very lucky to be one of the few people aware of their flaws. I have many. Yes, I know them. And I apologize for being an ass. There's not enough time to list them all, but one day I will. I mean, why not. There's nothing better to do.
See, just like that. I really believe I secretly love being down. Oh well. It's me and unfortunately probably never going to change.
Right now I am procrastinating reading the chapter and doing my many pages of french homework. Ah yes, the lovely french. STUPID FUCKING REQUIREMENT!
Still I want to drop out of everything.
I want to go home tonight. I want to go to my room. I want to just go to bed and hope I wake up on the better side tomorrow morning, let's say the side with the wall. Sometimes I think I just need a huge smack in the head. I haven't gotten any of those recently.
Actually, I'd much rather be in my own bed at home and rewind the years so I don't have to be here. Or fast-forward through everything.
Now that I think about it, my bed at home is so freaking comfortable. The sheets always feel so nice and cool. And underneath my blanket....oh man. Can anyone say elysium? Mmm.
Heh and I just realized that I'm listening to Blink-182, something I often do when feeling down. Their music always aids in some way.
People want to hang out with me but I'm really just not in the mood. Sometimes I feel like I enjoy being depressed, I seem to be quite often. Only when the public is gone, does it show. Nobody likes being bothered with questions like "What's wrong? Are you sure everything's okay? Hey, do you want to talk?" It's all so FUCKING annoying.
Though I must say, I feel very lucky to be one of the few people aware of their flaws. I have many. Yes, I know them. And I apologize for being an ass. There's not enough time to list them all, but one day I will. I mean, why not. There's nothing better to do.
See, just like that. I really believe I secretly love being down. Oh well. It's me and unfortunately probably never going to change.
Right now I am procrastinating reading the chapter and doing my many pages of french homework. Ah yes, the lovely french. STUPID FUCKING REQUIREMENT!
Still I want to drop out of everything.
I want to go home tonight. I want to go to my room. I want to just go to bed and hope I wake up on the better side tomorrow morning, let's say the side with the wall. Sometimes I think I just need a huge smack in the head. I haven't gotten any of those recently.
Actually, I'd much rather be in my own bed at home and rewind the years so I don't have to be here. Or fast-forward through everything.
Now that I think about it, my bed at home is so freaking comfortable. The sheets always feel so nice and cool. And underneath my blanket....oh man. Can anyone say elysium? Mmm.
Heh and I just realized that I'm listening to Blink-182, something I often do when feeling down. Their music always aids in some way.