I can't help but wonder.
I have too many feelings, it is really hard for me to explain them.
I'm so used to helping people with their feelings and sorting them out and what not, but when it comes down to mine I have no clue how to handle them.
I want one.
God, do I want one.
I'm tired of beating around the bush.
I want one to call my own.
I want to wake up and look forward to going to school in the morning because he will be there.
I'm tired of flings and I'm tired of looking and not finding.
Sorry, I am just in a bitchy mood.
I don't miss him but I miss what I had with him.
I love her. She is the only one that I can tell absolutely anything to, and expect the worst but result in the best. She is the only one that I feel bad for saying something mean to while I am upset. I can me angry and then yell at my mom and not explain to her why I said that, but with her it is like 5 minutes later I am already apoligizing and we are hugging. She is the only one that accepts me for who I am and doesn't question me. If she does, it is only because she does not understand but she never talks down upon me. You never realize how truly lucky you are until you lose it. But I realized it and nothing is gone.
My birthday is in 12 days. I shall be 15 years of age. Man, sometimes I wish I can go back to playing in the sand box and throwing sand up in the air and then looking up and it falls back in my eyes. That was my biggest problem then. It's so much different now.
It's insane because nothing happened to make me want to type this. It just all of the sudden came out of the back of my mind and it's like what I am typing, I am also reading for the first time.
I miss Brittney. Megan and I are probably going to hang out tonight. I'm looking forward to it.
Well, time is a precious thing.
I'm so used to helping people with their feelings and sorting them out and what not, but when it comes down to mine I have no clue how to handle them.
I want one.
God, do I want one.
I'm tired of beating around the bush.
I want one to call my own.
I want to wake up and look forward to going to school in the morning because he will be there.
I'm tired of flings and I'm tired of looking and not finding.
Sorry, I am just in a bitchy mood.
I don't miss him but I miss what I had with him.
I love her. She is the only one that I can tell absolutely anything to, and expect the worst but result in the best. She is the only one that I feel bad for saying something mean to while I am upset. I can me angry and then yell at my mom and not explain to her why I said that, but with her it is like 5 minutes later I am already apoligizing and we are hugging. She is the only one that accepts me for who I am and doesn't question me. If she does, it is only because she does not understand but she never talks down upon me. You never realize how truly lucky you are until you lose it. But I realized it and nothing is gone.
My birthday is in 12 days. I shall be 15 years of age. Man, sometimes I wish I can go back to playing in the sand box and throwing sand up in the air and then looking up and it falls back in my eyes. That was my biggest problem then. It's so much different now.
It's insane because nothing happened to make me want to type this. It just all of the sudden came out of the back of my mind and it's like what I am typing, I am also reading for the first time.
I miss Brittney. Megan and I are probably going to hang out tonight. I'm looking forward to it.
Well, time is a precious thing.