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Life is so weird…I’m losing any ability to capture how I feel about anything anymore. Well, at least in writing, maybe this whole going to school for photography could be it. It seems like the only way I can convey my emotions anymore is through imagery.
A lot has been going on lately, some wonderful, some awful. Everything evens out in the end, right? It always seems that way at least. I’m done with school and that is nice, though a complete shock to my system. At school I did what I wanted when I wanted in a sort of lawless matter. Even with all this freedom I think I did right by my parents and abided by a code of conduct any parent could be proud of. All the same, returning home is such a shock to my system. Suddenly I have to accommodate to a completely different lifestyle. I have to be quiet all the time, I have to eat what is made or just stick with cereal or something I can find to cook (which is rare), and really things are just boring.
It’s almost as if things are too private here, I almost half expect someone to try and barge into the bathroom as I’m showering or waking up to grinning faces lingering over my bed again. Heck, I even miss the drunken howls that rang from the vacant corroders at 4 in the morning. You go everyday living with people and then suddenly they are gone. It is amazing how close we all became and I trust these people with my life. Honestly, they saved my life and made me smile and carry on. I know it may sound corny or unrealistic but I really did grow that close to everyone and I mean it when I say that I love them.
Talking on the phone today with all of them, my heart grew so heavy. I have to go into the city today, I need to be around everyone again; this hometown life just isn’t for me. Kelsey and I are going to try and live in Chicago together next summer I think. That would be ideal. I might break my mom’s heart but I’d come home now and then. I have to get out of this place.
P.S. I want to go on a road trip to the west coast so badly. I really want to check out some tidal pools…nerdy? Sorry, I can’t help it. Besides which, I’ve never really been out there except when I was very young. Maybe I’ll hit up Colorado on the way and say hi to Brian!
P.P.S. I’m sorry I hurt you but I’m so grateful to have you in my life still. Thank you for being an amazing friend to me. I don't deserve it, but I appreciate it more than I can ever describe.
A lot has been going on lately, some wonderful, some awful. Everything evens out in the end, right? It always seems that way at least. I’m done with school and that is nice, though a complete shock to my system. At school I did what I wanted when I wanted in a sort of lawless matter. Even with all this freedom I think I did right by my parents and abided by a code of conduct any parent could be proud of. All the same, returning home is such a shock to my system. Suddenly I have to accommodate to a completely different lifestyle. I have to be quiet all the time, I have to eat what is made or just stick with cereal or something I can find to cook (which is rare), and really things are just boring.
It’s almost as if things are too private here, I almost half expect someone to try and barge into the bathroom as I’m showering or waking up to grinning faces lingering over my bed again. Heck, I even miss the drunken howls that rang from the vacant corroders at 4 in the morning. You go everyday living with people and then suddenly they are gone. It is amazing how close we all became and I trust these people with my life. Honestly, they saved my life and made me smile and carry on. I know it may sound corny or unrealistic but I really did grow that close to everyone and I mean it when I say that I love them.
Talking on the phone today with all of them, my heart grew so heavy. I have to go into the city today, I need to be around everyone again; this hometown life just isn’t for me. Kelsey and I are going to try and live in Chicago together next summer I think. That would be ideal. I might break my mom’s heart but I’d come home now and then. I have to get out of this place.
P.S. I want to go on a road trip to the west coast so badly. I really want to check out some tidal pools…nerdy? Sorry, I can’t help it. Besides which, I’ve never really been out there except when I was very young. Maybe I’ll hit up Colorado on the way and say hi to Brian!
P.P.S. I’m sorry I hurt you but I’m so grateful to have you in my life still. Thank you for being an amazing friend to me. I don't deserve it, but I appreciate it more than I can ever describe.