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Ok so here's the deal...I am a bad person. I lied to some of my closest friends, they're painfully mad at me as well they should be. I deserve to be hated, I deserve to not be trusted and I understand that. I understand that they need to be mad at me and that they need to hate me. I get that I did something that I shouldn't have, but people make mistakes and this was just an incredibly stupid one on my part. I want to tell them that I'm sorry, I want to say that it was stupid and that I love them, but I know in my heart that they may never forgive me which is understandable. I grasp that we may never be friends again. I comprehend that i broke their trust in me and that it may never be fully restored again. They were the first real friends that I ever had at school, and the worst part of it is, is knowing that I was the one who hurt them, I was the one who caused them pain. And if I was in their place I would hate me too. I have so many things that I want to say to each of them individually and then things that I want to say to them as a whole. I know that I should've been honest and I wasn't. So the only thing that I can hope for is that they can forgive me and we can be friends again.