wootness.
look at my beautiful redone journal, big thanks to meghan. that painting is by kurt halsey (meg's favorite artist, should i add)...i think it's wonderful. its called birch and its about a girl between the guy shes marrying and the guy she left behind. wonderful. i want to find my favorite artist, but that'll take me awhile to find. thanks again meg, i love ya!
so, i know it sounds kinda lame...but when i was watching everwood tonight, i was thinking how that efrem guy is a really good boyfriend to that amy girl. also how i want what she has, but i was laughing (really hard, in my head) looking at the irony of it all. i dont know if its just me - i actually dont care if it is, but i think its really hard these days to find a decent guy. WHY are you single? WHY AM I SINGLE? WHY are you so god damn shallow or picky? ...is what i hear from almost everyone. you people arent getting the point, i just know what i want. and there sure is no problem with that. to find someone you can settle with, just so you wont be "alone" (let me introduce you to a word called independence)...someone who you can turn to when you think theres no one else (have any friends lately?)...whatever the case, that's not what im looking for. maybe it's what you're looking for...but in my case, i will for sure as hell not settle for a guy that i cant stand for more than two seconds, like most other girls would. ive made my mistakes twice before, and i should have learned the first time. but third chances are rare, so im making the most of this and actually using my head. im also sick of waiting for a trustworthy guy to come along so im over it, and im focusing on finding a few more real friends who i can have mutual unconditional trust with. they say you're never gonna find it if you're looking for it. so ill make the most of life right now and just look forward to the day i find someone who actually truly cares about me.
i think all has been said and done.
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