ROOM 427.
i look into your blood shot eyes, as i say my last goodbyes.
half dead, half alive.
all that i can feel is your sickness consuming the best part of me.
as well as all of what you used to be.
your lungs are filled with fluids and eventually you will drown within yourself.
in between your every breath lay a long pause and running through my mind, is the question of will it be your last.
but your faint wheezes that sound similar to a plea of im ready now,
let me know that somewhere within your dead appearance,
there is a woman that i once knew who was anxious to take on what was to come next.
the only sound you make is your heart, which has not yet lost its beat.
its only a moment away until cancer has won you over in your battle for life.
i never wanted to see you like this, i cry.
i never wanted you to hurt like this, i die.
today has been good. =\ no homework though. and disneyland tomorrow, can i get a whoop whoop! my bus rocks! a lot of people i love are in the same one, yippee! i ordered pizza today. in fact, i ordered...2...LARGE. i am a fatty. i took ronni and gloria home. i took a nap. i ate ice cream. had some alone time while everyone left. i watched boy meets world and some music videos. woke up. went to school. i sang my heart out because i wanted to. i was laughing a lot, but i don't know why.. i ran the mile. almost did not make it, haha. FYI all of the previous is not in chronological order. by the way, im pondering on what fuckin way i should celebrate my birthday this year...any ideas please, would be greatly appreciated.
half dead, half alive.
all that i can feel is your sickness consuming the best part of me.
as well as all of what you used to be.
your lungs are filled with fluids and eventually you will drown within yourself.
in between your every breath lay a long pause and running through my mind, is the question of will it be your last.
but your faint wheezes that sound similar to a plea of im ready now,
let me know that somewhere within your dead appearance,
there is a woman that i once knew who was anxious to take on what was to come next.
the only sound you make is your heart, which has not yet lost its beat.
its only a moment away until cancer has won you over in your battle for life.
i never wanted to see you like this, i cry.
i never wanted you to hurt like this, i die.
today has been good. =\ no homework though. and disneyland tomorrow, can i get a whoop whoop! my bus rocks! a lot of people i love are in the same one, yippee! i ordered pizza today. in fact, i ordered...2...LARGE. i am a fatty. i took ronni and gloria home. i took a nap. i ate ice cream. had some alone time while everyone left. i watched boy meets world and some music videos. woke up. went to school. i sang my heart out because i wanted to. i was laughing a lot, but i don't know why.. i ran the mile. almost did not make it, haha. FYI all of the previous is not in chronological order. by the way, im pondering on what fuckin way i should celebrate my birthday this year...any ideas please, would be greatly appreciated.