braindump
I am so mad at my mom I could spit. I don't even know where to start - she's getting herself kicked out of her apartment at the end of this month, she's made accusations against her recently-deceased brother, and she seems to want my dad to come and rescue her. She won't tell her current boyfriend about her financial situation, but she keeps asking her sister and me for money. She won't consider moving here or to where her sister lives, though. And when she gets any reasonable amount of money, she squanders it on something truly trivial. She keeps coming up with illnesses that vanish after a while - for example, she's had diabetes twice, and it has vanished twice. She comes up with every excuse in the world for why she doesn't want to move here or to her sister's. She occasionally, for variations on a theme, claims that she has been robbed, or mugged, or had her apartment or car broken in to.
I mean, I know that a lot of people spend time being angry at their parents, but when I'm not the only one who is angry, I figure it's a bit more justified. Some people think that maybe she just needs to fall, and then she'll be able to pick herself back up again. I'm certain that she'll fall, but I'm not so sure that she'll be able to pick herself back up afterward. Keep in mind that this is a woman who, 20 years ago, was a successful attorney with lots of clients and who won cases right and left, and also had many personal interests and two teenagers. She's spent the last 10 years sliding farther and farther down, with only a few half-hearted attempts to get herself out of her financial and emotional difficulties. She's been on welfare and medicaid, and she's had assistance paying her power bill. She has gone from running her own successful law practice to barely scraping by on "borrowed" money. Before I was born, I understand that she went to law school, kept house, and regularly cooked full dinners for 10-15 people formal parties. She started law school shortly before getting pregnant, then had me and my brother (we're 14 months apart), and finished law school when we were 4 and 3. She's been burnt out for a long time now, and I don't ever see it getting any better.
Dammit.
I mean, I know that a lot of people spend time being angry at their parents, but when I'm not the only one who is angry, I figure it's a bit more justified. Some people think that maybe she just needs to fall, and then she'll be able to pick herself back up again. I'm certain that she'll fall, but I'm not so sure that she'll be able to pick herself back up afterward. Keep in mind that this is a woman who, 20 years ago, was a successful attorney with lots of clients and who won cases right and left, and also had many personal interests and two teenagers. She's spent the last 10 years sliding farther and farther down, with only a few half-hearted attempts to get herself out of her financial and emotional difficulties. She's been on welfare and medicaid, and she's had assistance paying her power bill. She has gone from running her own successful law practice to barely scraping by on "borrowed" money. Before I was born, I understand that she went to law school, kept house, and regularly cooked full dinners for 10-15 people formal parties. She started law school shortly before getting pregnant, then had me and my brother (we're 14 months apart), and finished law school when we were 4 and 3. She's been burnt out for a long time now, and I don't ever see it getting any better.
Dammit.