Well, crap.
Doug Marlette died in a car crash this morning. (Think Kudzu).
My longtime friend (really more like another brother) is moving to another job. This dismays me greatly, although I am very happy for him. I am not entirely sure why this dismays me so, except that I rather fancied him my protector for my first year here.
I'm irritated at myself for being so bloody petty that I'm jealous of harleenquinzell and lady_guenievre for getting Pearls so soon after I did. Then I manage to remind myself that they've been playing now for at least 6 years. Then I feel sad that I've been 'rewound' yet again in the SCA by this latest stupid injury/illness/mis-diagnosis set, and I find that I've entirely given up on the idea of ever getting someone to be my patron or mentor or peer.
And it's raining and I don't have an umbrella. So easy to swing from happy to depressed.
My longtime friend (really more like another brother) is moving to another job. This dismays me greatly, although I am very happy for him. I am not entirely sure why this dismays me so, except that I rather fancied him my protector for my first year here.
I'm irritated at myself for being so bloody petty that I'm jealous of harleenquinzell and lady_guenievre for getting Pearls so soon after I did. Then I manage to remind myself that they've been playing now for at least 6 years. Then I feel sad that I've been 'rewound' yet again in the SCA by this latest stupid injury/illness/mis-diagnosis set, and I find that I've entirely given up on the idea of ever getting someone to be my patron or mentor or peer.
And it's raining and I don't have an umbrella. So easy to swing from happy to depressed.