TAMALES!

[margaret_yang]

i'm sitting here wondering what to do. i hope that everything gets better because things could only get so bad. this year didn't feel so much like christmas. liz got me a signed poster from the smashing pumpkins! (that was really sweet) but other than that my parents didn't really get me anything. but i'm not complaining, i just miss the times when i was younger the excitment of waking up in the middle of the night to open gifts... they probably figured that i didn't really need anything. but just having a home and a somewhat functional family is all i really need. asking for more would just be too much. also, having the person i care about the most aside from my family and close friends. my girlfriend and best friend, i guess she really doesn't get the credit she really deserves. the past month or so have been a little rough, nothing we couldn't handle. but i want her to be happy with everyone and everything around her. i sit here wondering what's going to happen next? where do i go from here? so far my life has reached a point where the decisions i make now affect everyone close to me. we'll never know whether the decisions we make were either right or wrong. we think we make mistakes but maybe in the end it wasn't a mistake at all. a learning process i guess you might say. too be perfectly honest i don't know where i'm going with all this.
but i guess since its christmas it got me feeling all of this right now.

we shall see what the new year has to offer us...

merry christmas everyone! enjoy it while it lasts, its the time of year where everyone should bring cheer!~ (so cheesy) sheesh...

DISNEYLAND! i can't wait....