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wow, so many things have been running through my head for the past month, and i've been meaning to update on certain topics, but if there ever was an appropriate topic, this would be it. today, june 17, 2005, was the last day of school i will ever have with half of my classmates.
at the end of the day, when i was bawling my eyes out, i was looking at the 6th and 7th graders staring at me. and i realized how lucky they are, and how lucky we were. to be able to share our lives with these gorgeous sutherlanders and mendoners with out a worry in the world. my lil bro is in 5th grade, and his last days of schol are all field trips and anticipation of summer. damit i miss those days. when u didnt have to worry about not seeing your best friend again, and u didnt have to worry abotu studying you ass off and failing a physics final. when your only decisions were soccor camp or basketball camp. i know this sounds jsut........dumb, but i really dont want to grow up, and we're growing up so fast. that was part of the reason i was crying today. we're leaving middle school, adn we arnt coming back. guys, we arnt little kids anymore. things matter know, we have responsibilities, we have problems. im just thinking, i gotta live life to the fullest.
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean.
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens.
Promise me that you'll give fate a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance....
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance,
Living might mean taking chances,
But they're worth taking,
Loving might be a mistake,
But it's worth making.
yeah. such a great song. every line is inspiring to me. i hope i never fear that high school in the distance, and know i wont ever settle for the classes of least resistance.
ahhhhh theres so much going on in my head, i jsut cant organize it all and let it out.
another thing id like to add. when we were all crying and hugging by the 8th grade bench. that was kinda ironic. it all started there, by the 8th grade bench. after every class wed sit there and jsut talk, and before homeroom wed do all our hw we forgot. and it was so sad seeing everyone in tears there, when its really a happy place. thinking about it now, im smiling, i want to remember house 3 as a happy thing. the school year ending and summer coming is a happy thing.
my favorite song about the mhs/shs break up:
the scientist, coldplay
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start.
that song just makes me cry. but anyway... the line oh take me back to the start really makes me think. it makes me think about if i could go back to the start, just go back to the first day of 6th grade, about how many things i would do different and all the things that i would do the same. i would defintially be friends with all the wonderfull people i am friends with. i would of liked to live life a little more to the fullest, been a more friendly, and all that good stuff. but hey, i can start now.
this "experience" made me realize how many amazing friends i actually do have, and all the people im goign to miss in my life. for today, i forgot abotu all the problems and crap i've had with my friends, they were all beautiful in my eyes, and i loved them all. i still do. i dont want to remember ppl as hating them.
in social studies, it was so bitter sweet. all the fun ive had in that class. jsut hearing stephanie, marlena and tom and even brians voice and thinking, im not going to hear that voice agian. hey meghan and heather and atif and tyler are going to mendon, but they probaly wont be in my social studies class either. im not just leaving my sutherland friends, next year is going to be completely different. ill even have classes with 10th graders and such.
i was sitting next to my neighbor ryan on the bus on the ride homw today. hes in 6th grade. me and katie were pretty much just crying our eyes out, and he thoguht we were crazy. so i told him our story and our pain and to make sure you make plenty of friends, especially ones from sutherland. it was worth it. all those great times cracking up and having the time of my life, it was all worth it. if i could go back to the start, id do it all over again.we feel like crap now, and we'll get over it and make new friends, but i wont get over my sutherland friendships.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while.
that has been one of my all time favorite songs even since i hear it for the first time at camp stella maris 3 years ago.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
a fork in the road, sounds like mendon and sutherland to me. time is grabing us all by the wrist, and its directing us where to go. we're going to high school. we have to make the best of this test, and we shouldnt ask why. this is a test of our friendship, and i know many of my friendships will pass with flying colors. life is certainly unpredictable, but hell, its right. 8th grade was one of the best years of my life. for what this house 3 community was worth, it was worth all the while. im going to miss quinn getting in trouble and bitching about like libby and such, and oh boy would i miss billal in the hall, and im going to miss mr finn and his belly. but it was worth it, even tho its ending. but really its not ending......... its just begining.
at the end of the day, when i was bawling my eyes out, i was looking at the 6th and 7th graders staring at me. and i realized how lucky they are, and how lucky we were. to be able to share our lives with these gorgeous sutherlanders and mendoners with out a worry in the world. my lil bro is in 5th grade, and his last days of schol are all field trips and anticipation of summer. damit i miss those days. when u didnt have to worry about not seeing your best friend again, and u didnt have to worry abotu studying you ass off and failing a physics final. when your only decisions were soccor camp or basketball camp. i know this sounds jsut........dumb, but i really dont want to grow up, and we're growing up so fast. that was part of the reason i was crying today. we're leaving middle school, adn we arnt coming back. guys, we arnt little kids anymore. things matter know, we have responsibilities, we have problems. im just thinking, i gotta live life to the fullest.
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean.
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens.
Promise me that you'll give fate a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance....
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance,
Living might mean taking chances,
But they're worth taking,
Loving might be a mistake,
But it's worth making.
yeah. such a great song. every line is inspiring to me. i hope i never fear that high school in the distance, and know i wont ever settle for the classes of least resistance.
ahhhhh theres so much going on in my head, i jsut cant organize it all and let it out.
another thing id like to add. when we were all crying and hugging by the 8th grade bench. that was kinda ironic. it all started there, by the 8th grade bench. after every class wed sit there and jsut talk, and before homeroom wed do all our hw we forgot. and it was so sad seeing everyone in tears there, when its really a happy place. thinking about it now, im smiling, i want to remember house 3 as a happy thing. the school year ending and summer coming is a happy thing.
my favorite song about the mhs/shs break up:
the scientist, coldplay
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start.
that song just makes me cry. but anyway... the line oh take me back to the start really makes me think. it makes me think about if i could go back to the start, just go back to the first day of 6th grade, about how many things i would do different and all the things that i would do the same. i would defintially be friends with all the wonderfull people i am friends with. i would of liked to live life a little more to the fullest, been a more friendly, and all that good stuff. but hey, i can start now.
this "experience" made me realize how many amazing friends i actually do have, and all the people im goign to miss in my life. for today, i forgot abotu all the problems and crap i've had with my friends, they were all beautiful in my eyes, and i loved them all. i still do. i dont want to remember ppl as hating them.
in social studies, it was so bitter sweet. all the fun ive had in that class. jsut hearing stephanie, marlena and tom and even brians voice and thinking, im not going to hear that voice agian. hey meghan and heather and atif and tyler are going to mendon, but they probaly wont be in my social studies class either. im not just leaving my sutherland friends, next year is going to be completely different. ill even have classes with 10th graders and such.
i was sitting next to my neighbor ryan on the bus on the ride homw today. hes in 6th grade. me and katie were pretty much just crying our eyes out, and he thoguht we were crazy. so i told him our story and our pain and to make sure you make plenty of friends, especially ones from sutherland. it was worth it. all those great times cracking up and having the time of my life, it was all worth it. if i could go back to the start, id do it all over again.we feel like crap now, and we'll get over it and make new friends, but i wont get over my sutherland friendships.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while.
that has been one of my all time favorite songs even since i hear it for the first time at camp stella maris 3 years ago.
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
a fork in the road, sounds like mendon and sutherland to me. time is grabing us all by the wrist, and its directing us where to go. we're going to high school. we have to make the best of this test, and we shouldnt ask why. this is a test of our friendship, and i know many of my friendships will pass with flying colors. life is certainly unpredictable, but hell, its right. 8th grade was one of the best years of my life. for what this house 3 community was worth, it was worth all the while. im going to miss quinn getting in trouble and bitching about like libby and such, and oh boy would i miss billal in the hall, and im going to miss mr finn and his belly. but it was worth it, even tho its ending. but really its not ending......... its just begining.