Remodeling
Well, slept on it. I don't remember when I actually woke up, but I got out of bed at 11:30am os so...hooray for the Friday morning laziness.
Party's going on tonight downtown Charlotte. Will plan to go. Yep. Went to another party last night. It was great. It was for a friend that I work with, and it was great to know that just being there with all his other friends made him happy.
I love this LJ--it's less cluttered than the written one, and I can edit and realign as I see fit...you know, format it to my liking.
Nails need to be rebuffed. One thing I pride myself on, is making myself look like I visited the salon when I actually did it all myself. It's another creative thing, really. I don't mean to be conceited. I am thinking of making this journal private anyways, so no one will get the wrong impression. So with that knowledge serving as a temporary security blanket, I'll proceed.
First off, I came to a somewhat unsettling realization. That you can actually focus all your thoughts and motivations on someone or something, without even knowing it. I realized that, as I was driving last night, and it scared the holy hell out of me.
I dreamt about Red Robin. I dreamt the guests wanted to give me their orders through my cell phone, even though they were in the same building as me. I thought to myself that it didn't makse sense, but I let them do it. And with the way my cell phone has been acting lately, I only got parts of their order (among the jumble were meatballs covered in BBQ sauce, an actual food item served at the party last night). When I hung up the phone, I saw another server giving my guests their order. It was my only table for the entire night, so I felt it was a waste of time.
I wish I could listen to "You Belong to the City" right now. Because I feel like when I come back to Chicago, I want to explore the city, unafraid. Get my bearings back. I was never really a city girl--more of a suburban girl.
But enough of the melodrama.
I realized that I am building a foundation out here, after all, and that I need to focus on ME--not on how anything I do will effect someone else or my relationship with anyone else.
Also, I need to clearly communicate where we stand right now. I have to admit, up until this point I've only assumed alot of shit. It was never directly stated by either of us.
...wow...that's it really. I think Mia's advice from a while back has hit me--namely, to relax, breathe, and see what happens when I get there. I will worry about preparing for the worst when I actually get to that point.
That's all...there are other pressing matters now. Such as:
Run around the block before it gets too hot
Clean my room
Clean this damn coffee table
Call and see if there is anything going on tonight
Pack my suitcase
Party's going on tonight downtown Charlotte. Will plan to go. Yep. Went to another party last night. It was great. It was for a friend that I work with, and it was great to know that just being there with all his other friends made him happy.
I love this LJ--it's less cluttered than the written one, and I can edit and realign as I see fit...you know, format it to my liking.
Nails need to be rebuffed. One thing I pride myself on, is making myself look like I visited the salon when I actually did it all myself. It's another creative thing, really. I don't mean to be conceited. I am thinking of making this journal private anyways, so no one will get the wrong impression. So with that knowledge serving as a temporary security blanket, I'll proceed.
First off, I came to a somewhat unsettling realization. That you can actually focus all your thoughts and motivations on someone or something, without even knowing it. I realized that, as I was driving last night, and it scared the holy hell out of me.
I dreamt about Red Robin. I dreamt the guests wanted to give me their orders through my cell phone, even though they were in the same building as me. I thought to myself that it didn't makse sense, but I let them do it. And with the way my cell phone has been acting lately, I only got parts of their order (among the jumble were meatballs covered in BBQ sauce, an actual food item served at the party last night). When I hung up the phone, I saw another server giving my guests their order. It was my only table for the entire night, so I felt it was a waste of time.
I wish I could listen to "You Belong to the City" right now. Because I feel like when I come back to Chicago, I want to explore the city, unafraid. Get my bearings back. I was never really a city girl--more of a suburban girl.
But enough of the melodrama.
I realized that I am building a foundation out here, after all, and that I need to focus on ME--not on how anything I do will effect someone else or my relationship with anyone else.
Also, I need to clearly communicate where we stand right now. I have to admit, up until this point I've only assumed alot of shit. It was never directly stated by either of us.
...wow...that's it really. I think Mia's advice from a while back has hit me--namely, to relax, breathe, and see what happens when I get there. I will worry about preparing for the worst when I actually get to that point.
That's all...there are other pressing matters now. Such as:
Run around the block before it gets too hot
Clean my room
Clean this damn coffee table
Call and see if there is anything going on tonight
Pack my suitcase