my REAL father would let me go clubbing as late as i want

[maren]

sometimes i think about starting a whole new blog.  a blog about who i really am, about what i really think and feel.  i've gone as far as creating the blogger account.  then i sit there, realize i don't have it in me, and delete the account again.

i'm not sure when it happened, but i stopped sharing my whole self with anybody.