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i just updated earlier but ive found more to blab on about.
so i was talking with michael before the OC tonight and we were sitting on jasons car cuz it was beautiful out and it reminded us of the summer. but we were talkin about school and what not. we have TWO WEEKS of classes left people and then a week of finals .. and its over. we're gone.
what are they thinking? i'm not ready to leave high school. yeah i cant wait to get out of there .. but im not ready and i still dont wanna leave. what am i gunna do with myself .. besides get a job and be lazy with my friends. im going to college. what are these people thinking ?! letting me graduate and go out into the "real world." .. im the most immature person .. and i dont mean like i joke around all the time and what not. i can't take care of myself .. i know practically nothing compared to what i think i know and compared to how big the world is. what is going on ?! im going to miss everything and everyone so much. the schedules, the familiarity, knowing pretty much everyone and everything there is to know about my surroundings. i have so much to learn. im not used to being the small person .. but im going to be the runt of the litter once i move to school. and yeah its only boston and i practically grew up there. but no, this can't happen. but it is. and theres nothing i can do about it. ive been too wrapped up in taking things day by day .. and then i get slapped in the face by reality.
i'm not ready to grow up. i can't grow up in a matter of FIVE weeks before graduation.
silly people.
so i was talking with michael before the OC tonight and we were sitting on jasons car cuz it was beautiful out and it reminded us of the summer. but we were talkin about school and what not. we have TWO WEEKS of classes left people and then a week of finals .. and its over. we're gone.
what are they thinking? i'm not ready to leave high school. yeah i cant wait to get out of there .. but im not ready and i still dont wanna leave. what am i gunna do with myself .. besides get a job and be lazy with my friends. im going to college. what are these people thinking ?! letting me graduate and go out into the "real world." .. im the most immature person .. and i dont mean like i joke around all the time and what not. i can't take care of myself .. i know practically nothing compared to what i think i know and compared to how big the world is. what is going on ?! im going to miss everything and everyone so much. the schedules, the familiarity, knowing pretty much everyone and everything there is to know about my surroundings. i have so much to learn. im not used to being the small person .. but im going to be the runt of the litter once i move to school. and yeah its only boston and i practically grew up there. but no, this can't happen. but it is. and theres nothing i can do about it. ive been too wrapped up in taking things day by day .. and then i get slapped in the face by reality.
i'm not ready to grow up. i can't grow up in a matter of FIVE weeks before graduation.
silly people.