Fanfic: Winter Romance 5/?
Winter Romance Part 5/?
By Marea67
About: Kevin/Scotty
Rate: OMG ! Scotty ! You little.... ;)
Disclaimer: Written with love, not for money.
Summary: AU - Kevin/Scotty - Scotty is the manager in a hotel in a ski-resort. Kevin just got divorced. The Walkers think that he needs a 'nice family holiday'. He doesn't.
Where were we? - Scotty and Kevin got to know each other a bit better and Kevin's annoying brain is starting to switch off, so he can enjoy the lovely company he has.
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"Listen, I know you must have made your own plans for your time off. I hope that I'm not disturbing those plans too much?" Kevin asks after their late lunch. Scotty shrugs.
"I had some plans, but you're not really a problem. If there's one thing I've learned over the years then it is to adjust my plans."
"What were your plans?" Kevin asks.
"Putting up my tree and then maybe binge-watch a few shows.... but I don't mind doing something else. I can watch whenever I want and if it's no longer available for streaming, I buy the dvd-sets and watch those."
Well, that explains the large collection of DVD's that Kevin had seen.
"Which show did you plan to binge?" He asks. Scotty looks a bit uneasy, but then sheepishly answers:
"Downton Abbey."
"You watch that show?" Kevin asks, taken aback by Scotty's answer.
"I know it's not everyone's cup of tea, but...."
"I love that show." Kevin sighs. "But everyone around me just doesn't. I can't think of anyone, not even my mother or my sister Sarah, who likes it.
And of course, my ex thought it was ridiculous. Why get involved in a show about an English family and their servants, but... it was well made and I loved so much about it."
"Exactly. I love how stylish it is, and how it's funny and sometimes dramatic and sometimes over-the-top."
"And it has a gay character."
"Though I'm not sure I like him, he sometimes just manages to redeem himself and then be a total jerk again. You just never know what he's up to." Scotty agrees, with more enthusiasm.
Seeing the recognition in Kevin's eyes makes Scotty realize the opportunity.
"I can only watch it on my laptop. I usually watch it in front of the fireplace. Nice and cozy. Hot drink, usually tea, and cookies. And just emerge myself in it. Would you care to join me and watch it with me?"
"I'd love to." Kevin says and soon enough they're both watching the show on Scotty's laptop. It surprises Scotty how much Kevin knows about the show. They discuss the show between 2 episodes and it's amazing how much they think alike. They are so eager to keep watching that they have dinner in the living-room.
The fireplace is roaring and night is falling. The snow outside is piling up even higher, but neither of the men care much about it. The English landside keeps taking them to another place and time. After a few episodes though, Scotty notices that Kevin has been quiet for a while and when he looks to his side, he can see that Kevin has fallen asleep.
Kevin's face isn't as relaxed as Scotty would have hoped. The dark hair frames a face that shows tension and he can see that Kevin's sleep is a restless one. He looks lost and lonely and Scotty would love to see him sparkling some more, just like he had done this afternoon while setting up the tree or tonight when they had been binge-watching.
Scotty pours himself a glass of wine and he continues to watch Kevin, wondering what to do. He feels attracted to him, which is strange because Kevin is not exactly his type and he has sworn off dating men a few years ago, after yet another winter-romance had gone nowhere.
But what he feels for Kevin is something else. He has never felt so protective before. He needs to make Kevin have fun. He wants to see Kevin be happy and the feeling confuses him. He would usually fall for some gorgeous athletic type of man, good between the sheets, but, and he had to honest here too, not exactly relationship-material.
He had always thought that it was because deep down inside he was not ready for something serious either, because he was not relationship-material either. But now that he's quietly watching Kevin sleep, he's not sure of what he wants anymore. What he would really want to do is just snuggle up to Kevin and hold him.
He carefully reaches out to move a strand of hair from Kevin's face. Kevin opens his eyes. He seems to not entirely realize where he is. The smile he gives Scotty is a bright one. Then, as if reality kicks in about where he is, the joy fades away. The light just seems to die.
Scotty finds this unsettling, because Kevin had seemed to be in a very happy place for just a few seconds.
"Sorry, I think I fell asleep. Was I snoring?"
"No, you were actually remarkably quiet." Scotty answers with a gentle smile. "You just looked so ... lonely ... and it felt like you didn't have a nice dream."
"I didn't. It was nice to see your face when I woke up though." Kevin says softly.
So, Kevin had been happy to see him! Scotty realizes that he's way too happy about this. He tells himself that it means nothing. He doesn't know Kevin all that well. Kevin doesn't know him either. It's just a coincidence that they got thrown together in Scotty's cabin like this and being stuck with each other would obviously create closeness.
"I'm sorry I woke you up. Do you want to go to bed and sleep? It's still early in the evening, but if you're tired..."
"I'm not really tired. It's somehow so calm and so comfortable to be here. I just feel very relaxed when I'm with you."
"Glad to hear that."
"I don't mean anything with it. I'm not trying to ..." Kevin shuts up. Who is he kidding? He would want nothing more!
"So, you don't think I'm attractive? Cute? Sexy?" Scotty teases.
Kevin catches on just too late, probably because he's still sleepy. Fearing he had somehow insulted Scotty, he stammers:
"No, you're very attractive. I... I... just.. I know ... Nothing is going to happen, 'cause you're not interested in me and ..."
"Relax. I'm just joking." Scotty laughs. He holds up the bottle wine as to offer Kevin some as well. Kevin merely nods, looks on while Scotty pours the wine. While handing Kevin his glass, Scotty adds: "And just for the record, I think you're a very attractive...."
A heavy blush comes to Kevin's face.
"Yeah, right." Kevin reacts dismissively.
"Why are you always putting yourself down like that?" Scotty's question is a direct one and before Kevin can even open his mouth Scotty already knows the answer.
"I actually thought this over on my way up here. I guess I hardly ever something positive about myself." Kevin shrugs. "I'm a lawyer, not exactly everyone's favorite kind of people. So I've been told that I'm a leech, heartless, selfish and more interested in money than people.
My father never considered me a real man, not like my brothers, because I'm gay. I would never be good enough. My ex left me for a younger guy, who was more attractive, more fun and more available, because he wasn't a workaholic like me. He told me straight to my face that he felt I'd become some old prune. Wrinkly and tasteless.... Those words didn't exactly lift my spirit." Kevin semi-jokes.
"Why on Earth did you ever marry him?" Scotty wonders.
"Ha! Good question! At the start of our relationship we knew we had opposite characters, but we thought we could learn from each other, make each other stronger. Best of both worlds, that kinda shit.
And we did for a while. We compromised as much as we could to make each other happy. If we would have a few days off, we would for instance take one day were we'd go to a museum, which he loved and I hated. And then the next day we'd go to the theatre to watch a musical which he hated and I loved. Find balance."
"I can see the logic there. Where or when did it go wrong?"
"I'm not sure. I think that things started to change when he got an inheritance from his aunt. Money and well-running art-gallery. And suddenly his level of self-importance was just staggering! He considered himself a real connoisseur.
A painting was no longer a painting, but he had to give complete lectures on the existentialism and the most inner-deep thoughts of the artist and wrah-wrah-wrah - use big words, try to impress .... When all I could do was think - whatever, that thing is fucking ugly." Kevin shrugs and Scotty laughs out loud.
"Sorry. That sounds awful."
"Yes, and with his growing wealth and status, he looked even further down on me. We were once on a short winter holiday with my family. My niece and nephew and I were making snow-angels in the snow. Mind you, the kids were 5 and 7 at the time. It was so incredibly cold. We were like a couple of screaming monkeys rolling in the snow.
On the drive home he told how me appalled he was by my behavior. How I was acting like a fool and that I should act my age... It really hurt, because I just wanted to have fun, but I was told that I was an embarrassment. It was always things like that. Then he no longer wanted me to go to parties with him, because I didn't really 'fit in'... Nice.
I don't know. Maybe I should have seen it sooner that he was becoming a jerk, but... all I did was work even harder, to get more money, more acceptance. I have only now started to understand that I was just trying to avoid being home and being told that I was somehow not good enough." Kevin shrugs.
"Maybe now you can also understand why I don't care that I got divorced. I'm better off without him. I'm starting to get my life back, I'm trying to find out who I used to be. And that's not easy if you have a family who's constantly watching your every move, because they think that you're such a lost soul that you can't survive without them. I can. I will. Just let me find out how... But they just won't let me."
Scotty leans back, trying to figure out what he can do. He knows the impact of years of getting belittled. In his case by his parents. It creeps into your system and slowly kills you from inside. He looks out the window. The lights in the garden are on again and he can see that the snow is falling slowly, dancing on the light breeze. He jumps up.
"Come on! Let's go!" He pulls Kevin off the floor.
"Where?" Kevin asks.
"Outside. Grab your coat." Scotty now throws Kevin's coat in his direction and Kevin manages to catch it just in time.
Scotty takes Kevin by the hand and almost drags him to the barn-door. When he opens it to go outside, the cold air takes their breath away.
"Scotty! What's going on?" Kevin shivers when while he's still zipping up his coat. Scotty pushes him in the direction of the snow-covered garden.
"We're going to make snow-angels. I love them too and I haven't made one this season. Come on!"
"Are you insane? It's freezing cold!" Kevin protests. Scotty laughs out loud and pushes him gently backward as he teases:
"That's right! Don't be an old prune! Don't act your age! Do what you like to do! Make a snow angel with me." Scotty lets himself fall in the snow and flaps his arms and legs to create an angel in the snow. Kevin hesitates, but then he lies down in the snow next to Scotty.
"Move over, you amateur!" He says and forgets all about the cold. He moves his arms and legs and soon enough the angels merge a bit at the ends. They both giggle like little children until Kevin flings a handful of snow at Scotty. This is turn makes Scotty throw his first snowball of the year and within seconds they pelt snowballs at each other.
They dive, duck and dodge to avoid getting hit until, out of breath from laughter, Kevin calls for a truce.
"I can't go on. I'm too out of shape for this." Kevin giggles. He nearly slips, but Scotty manages to catch him just in time and Kevin ends up in Scotty's arms. For a quiet moment they just stare at each other, both breathing heavily. Scotty cups Kevin's face with his hands.
"You know, I usually don't get romantically involved with guests. It's unprofessional and it usually leads to heartbreak. At the end of the holiday, the person you like leaves you because he wants or needs to go back to where he came from.
I, on the other hand, want to stay here. I don't want to uproot my life for someone who wouldn't do the same for me. After a few mistakes, I've given up on romance. It just easier that way. Less painful."
"I see. I get that. I'm sorry if I've given you the idea that..."
"... However..." Scotty goes on. "Easy isn't what it's cracked up to be. Difficult is sometimes good, you know. It forces you to do things you didn't think you could." The blank look Kevin him shows Scotty that he has no clue what Scotty means.
"I can feel the attraction between us. It's weird, but I noticed it straight away and... I don't know, maybe I've been alone too long, but it almost feels as if we got put together on purpose. What are the odds of a patron knowing how he can help me behind the bar? Of running into each other in the most unlikely place in town? You getting sick enough to go back to your room, only to be forgotten, so I have to come and get you?"
"It does sound a bit far-fetched, but it happened to us..." Kevin replies.
"Exactly. Almost like we're 'forced' to be together."
"You think it means something? On some cosmic level?" Kevin seems to doubt it.
"I don't think we're that important, on a 'cosmic' level, but I don't think it's coincidence."
"Ssssooo, what do you mean... exactly?" Kevin carefully wants to know. Scotty doesn't answer right away. He takes time to think before he thoughtfully answers:
"It would seem that we're both on a crossroad in our lives. Maybe... we need each other to move on?" Kevin has to admit he had hoped for something more physical and not so spiritual, but if Scotty needs help with something, he would like to give that help.
"Sorry, that came out wrong and way more spiritual than I meant to.... What I mean is... I think you're very attractive and I think you like me too... There's just you and me and ... I think we're both lonely, but I wonder if maybe we can be lonely together?..." Scotty speaks hesitantly, hoping and praying that he didn't get the signals wrong.
Kevin lets the words sink in.
"So, what you're suggesting is..."
"I don't see any reason to play games. Look up. The snow just keeps falling. There's only you and me. I'm not asking for a total commitment. Or for 'eternal love '. I don't believe in that anymore. And I don't think you do either." Kevin shakes his head. "Doesn't mean we can't ... Do you have any idea how much I want to kiss you?"
"No." Kevin shakes his head.
"Well, I do. Want to kiss you." Scotty smiles.
"Don't let me stop you?" Kevin replies carefully, still not fully comprehending what Scotty just told him.
"Really? You want me to? You're alright with it?" Scotty asks.He can see how Kevin takes a deep breath, tries to answer, can't come with a clever reply and eventually shakily sighs:
"Yeah."
Scotty laughs softly before leaning in closer to Kevin. Kevin's lips part. He stills seems to be unsure, but when Scotty's lips touch his, all insecurity is gone. The first kiss is followed by a second and soon enough they can't stop. Their kisses are light and playful and only makes Kevin hungry for more.
He reaches up and pulls Scotty's head down closer to his, intensifying their kiss and this time Scotty puts his arms around Kevin, hands sliding down Kevin's back, gently forcing him closer.
A snowflake melts on Kevin's skin and slides inside his coat. He shivers at the sudden cold and Scotty lets go of him.
"Shall we go inside? Get dry and warm?" He asks. Kevin can only nods silently, regretting that their kiss is over.
He looks into the living-room from the outside and sees the fire. Their drinks are still on the table. He longs to be back in Scotty's arms. Scotty's hand slips into his and he guides Kevin back inside. Once back in the kitchen, Scotty kisses Kevin again, this time not asking for permission.
He doesn't need it, because Kevin immediately replies to the kiss. Without the thick winter coats between them Kevin becomes quite aware of how muscular Scotty is and he has to admit that it feels wonderful to be held in strong arms. Slowly Scotty breaks their kiss, noticing that both of them are getting quite aroused.
"How far do you want us to go with this?" Scotty asks. Kevin has trouble getting his brain organized. His lips are still burning and he can't ignore the fact one part of his anatomy has come to life with an absolute need for satisfaction.
"Can we take it slow? Just stick to kissing for now?" He asks quietly.
He's afraid he would sound desperate if he would beg Scotty to just do with him whatever he wants. Scotty bows his head to hide his smile. Kevin's body is against his and there's no way that they will stick to kissing only, but he doesn't want to push too hard on Kevin either. He wouldn't want Kevin to feel forced into it.
"Let's get on the couch and warm ourselves up in front of the fire?" Scotty suggests. Kevin nods and follows Scotty back into the living room. But once they sit down, all it takes is one look and Scotty's lips are on Kevin's again. This time Kevin doesn't want to wait anymore either.
He lies down on his back and takes Scotty on top of him. Scotty's body moves against his. Scotty's hands are on his skin, slipping under Kevin's sweater. Kevin moans as the soft touch sends shivers down his spine. He pushes his body up against Scotty's. Scotty's fingers slide to the front and rest on the button on Kevin's jeans.
"Yes?" Scotty whispers in Kevin's ear.
"Oh, yes, please... Please!" Kevin begs. Just to tease, Scotty gently lets his fingers slide over the hardness, before carefully pushing the jeans down. He can feel Kevin react with anticipation.
When Scotty's fingers eventually find their way around Kevin's hard member, Kevin almost cries out with the need for satisfaction. Scotty lets him, trying to slowly bring him closer to his orgasm, but Kevin is too eager. He pushes himself up. Scotty can hear Kevin beg him not to stop and Scotty knows that Kevin will not last long.
With a little smile of satisfaction, he takes Kevin over the edge. There's something so delicious in hearing Kevin's breath hitch, followed by the loud moan as he comes over Scotty's hand.
"I'm sorry. That was too fast and .... I didn't even think of you and..." Kevin stammers.
Scotty silences him with a kiss.
"Shhh, it's alright. We have all the time in the world." For a moment they remain quietly in each other's arms, while Kevin calms down and enjoys the many little kisses Scotty gives him, until they have to move a bit to give each other some space on the couch.
"I'm just not sure how long I can take this 'slow'-thing." Scotty admits quietly. Kevin's hand slides down Scotty's belly, past the elastic band of Scotty's sweatpants, finding the hardness he seeks. He can hear Scotty sigh softly and he grins as he looks up at Scotty,
"I think we can skip the 'slow'-stage." and his hand tightens around Scotty's cock.
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End of Chapter 5
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By Marea67
About: Kevin/Scotty
Rate: OMG ! Scotty ! You little.... ;)
Disclaimer: Written with love, not for money.
Summary: AU - Kevin/Scotty - Scotty is the manager in a hotel in a ski-resort. Kevin just got divorced. The Walkers think that he needs a 'nice family holiday'. He doesn't.
Where were we? - Scotty and Kevin got to know each other a bit better and Kevin's annoying brain is starting to switch off, so he can enjoy the lovely company he has.
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"Listen, I know you must have made your own plans for your time off. I hope that I'm not disturbing those plans too much?" Kevin asks after their late lunch. Scotty shrugs.
"I had some plans, but you're not really a problem. If there's one thing I've learned over the years then it is to adjust my plans."
"What were your plans?" Kevin asks.
"Putting up my tree and then maybe binge-watch a few shows.... but I don't mind doing something else. I can watch whenever I want and if it's no longer available for streaming, I buy the dvd-sets and watch those."
Well, that explains the large collection of DVD's that Kevin had seen.
"Which show did you plan to binge?" He asks. Scotty looks a bit uneasy, but then sheepishly answers:
"Downton Abbey."
"You watch that show?" Kevin asks, taken aback by Scotty's answer.
"I know it's not everyone's cup of tea, but...."
"I love that show." Kevin sighs. "But everyone around me just doesn't. I can't think of anyone, not even my mother or my sister Sarah, who likes it.
And of course, my ex thought it was ridiculous. Why get involved in a show about an English family and their servants, but... it was well made and I loved so much about it."
"Exactly. I love how stylish it is, and how it's funny and sometimes dramatic and sometimes over-the-top."
"And it has a gay character."
"Though I'm not sure I like him, he sometimes just manages to redeem himself and then be a total jerk again. You just never know what he's up to." Scotty agrees, with more enthusiasm.
Seeing the recognition in Kevin's eyes makes Scotty realize the opportunity.
"I can only watch it on my laptop. I usually watch it in front of the fireplace. Nice and cozy. Hot drink, usually tea, and cookies. And just emerge myself in it. Would you care to join me and watch it with me?"
"I'd love to." Kevin says and soon enough they're both watching the show on Scotty's laptop. It surprises Scotty how much Kevin knows about the show. They discuss the show between 2 episodes and it's amazing how much they think alike. They are so eager to keep watching that they have dinner in the living-room.
The fireplace is roaring and night is falling. The snow outside is piling up even higher, but neither of the men care much about it. The English landside keeps taking them to another place and time. After a few episodes though, Scotty notices that Kevin has been quiet for a while and when he looks to his side, he can see that Kevin has fallen asleep.
Kevin's face isn't as relaxed as Scotty would have hoped. The dark hair frames a face that shows tension and he can see that Kevin's sleep is a restless one. He looks lost and lonely and Scotty would love to see him sparkling some more, just like he had done this afternoon while setting up the tree or tonight when they had been binge-watching.
Scotty pours himself a glass of wine and he continues to watch Kevin, wondering what to do. He feels attracted to him, which is strange because Kevin is not exactly his type and he has sworn off dating men a few years ago, after yet another winter-romance had gone nowhere.
But what he feels for Kevin is something else. He has never felt so protective before. He needs to make Kevin have fun. He wants to see Kevin be happy and the feeling confuses him. He would usually fall for some gorgeous athletic type of man, good between the sheets, but, and he had to honest here too, not exactly relationship-material.
He had always thought that it was because deep down inside he was not ready for something serious either, because he was not relationship-material either. But now that he's quietly watching Kevin sleep, he's not sure of what he wants anymore. What he would really want to do is just snuggle up to Kevin and hold him.
He carefully reaches out to move a strand of hair from Kevin's face. Kevin opens his eyes. He seems to not entirely realize where he is. The smile he gives Scotty is a bright one. Then, as if reality kicks in about where he is, the joy fades away. The light just seems to die.
Scotty finds this unsettling, because Kevin had seemed to be in a very happy place for just a few seconds.
"Sorry, I think I fell asleep. Was I snoring?"
"No, you were actually remarkably quiet." Scotty answers with a gentle smile. "You just looked so ... lonely ... and it felt like you didn't have a nice dream."
"I didn't. It was nice to see your face when I woke up though." Kevin says softly.
So, Kevin had been happy to see him! Scotty realizes that he's way too happy about this. He tells himself that it means nothing. He doesn't know Kevin all that well. Kevin doesn't know him either. It's just a coincidence that they got thrown together in Scotty's cabin like this and being stuck with each other would obviously create closeness.
"I'm sorry I woke you up. Do you want to go to bed and sleep? It's still early in the evening, but if you're tired..."
"I'm not really tired. It's somehow so calm and so comfortable to be here. I just feel very relaxed when I'm with you."
"Glad to hear that."
"I don't mean anything with it. I'm not trying to ..." Kevin shuts up. Who is he kidding? He would want nothing more!
"So, you don't think I'm attractive? Cute? Sexy?" Scotty teases.
Kevin catches on just too late, probably because he's still sleepy. Fearing he had somehow insulted Scotty, he stammers:
"No, you're very attractive. I... I... just.. I know ... Nothing is going to happen, 'cause you're not interested in me and ..."
"Relax. I'm just joking." Scotty laughs. He holds up the bottle wine as to offer Kevin some as well. Kevin merely nods, looks on while Scotty pours the wine. While handing Kevin his glass, Scotty adds: "And just for the record, I think you're a very attractive...."
A heavy blush comes to Kevin's face.
"Yeah, right." Kevin reacts dismissively.
"Why are you always putting yourself down like that?" Scotty's question is a direct one and before Kevin can even open his mouth Scotty already knows the answer.
"I actually thought this over on my way up here. I guess I hardly ever something positive about myself." Kevin shrugs. "I'm a lawyer, not exactly everyone's favorite kind of people. So I've been told that I'm a leech, heartless, selfish and more interested in money than people.
My father never considered me a real man, not like my brothers, because I'm gay. I would never be good enough. My ex left me for a younger guy, who was more attractive, more fun and more available, because he wasn't a workaholic like me. He told me straight to my face that he felt I'd become some old prune. Wrinkly and tasteless.... Those words didn't exactly lift my spirit." Kevin semi-jokes.
"Why on Earth did you ever marry him?" Scotty wonders.
"Ha! Good question! At the start of our relationship we knew we had opposite characters, but we thought we could learn from each other, make each other stronger. Best of both worlds, that kinda shit.
And we did for a while. We compromised as much as we could to make each other happy. If we would have a few days off, we would for instance take one day were we'd go to a museum, which he loved and I hated. And then the next day we'd go to the theatre to watch a musical which he hated and I loved. Find balance."
"I can see the logic there. Where or when did it go wrong?"
"I'm not sure. I think that things started to change when he got an inheritance from his aunt. Money and well-running art-gallery. And suddenly his level of self-importance was just staggering! He considered himself a real connoisseur.
A painting was no longer a painting, but he had to give complete lectures on the existentialism and the most inner-deep thoughts of the artist and wrah-wrah-wrah - use big words, try to impress .... When all I could do was think - whatever, that thing is fucking ugly." Kevin shrugs and Scotty laughs out loud.
"Sorry. That sounds awful."
"Yes, and with his growing wealth and status, he looked even further down on me. We were once on a short winter holiday with my family. My niece and nephew and I were making snow-angels in the snow. Mind you, the kids were 5 and 7 at the time. It was so incredibly cold. We were like a couple of screaming monkeys rolling in the snow.
On the drive home he told how me appalled he was by my behavior. How I was acting like a fool and that I should act my age... It really hurt, because I just wanted to have fun, but I was told that I was an embarrassment. It was always things like that. Then he no longer wanted me to go to parties with him, because I didn't really 'fit in'... Nice.
I don't know. Maybe I should have seen it sooner that he was becoming a jerk, but... all I did was work even harder, to get more money, more acceptance. I have only now started to understand that I was just trying to avoid being home and being told that I was somehow not good enough." Kevin shrugs.
"Maybe now you can also understand why I don't care that I got divorced. I'm better off without him. I'm starting to get my life back, I'm trying to find out who I used to be. And that's not easy if you have a family who's constantly watching your every move, because they think that you're such a lost soul that you can't survive without them. I can. I will. Just let me find out how... But they just won't let me."
Scotty leans back, trying to figure out what he can do. He knows the impact of years of getting belittled. In his case by his parents. It creeps into your system and slowly kills you from inside. He looks out the window. The lights in the garden are on again and he can see that the snow is falling slowly, dancing on the light breeze. He jumps up.
"Come on! Let's go!" He pulls Kevin off the floor.
"Where?" Kevin asks.
"Outside. Grab your coat." Scotty now throws Kevin's coat in his direction and Kevin manages to catch it just in time.
Scotty takes Kevin by the hand and almost drags him to the barn-door. When he opens it to go outside, the cold air takes their breath away.
"Scotty! What's going on?" Kevin shivers when while he's still zipping up his coat. Scotty pushes him in the direction of the snow-covered garden.
"We're going to make snow-angels. I love them too and I haven't made one this season. Come on!"
"Are you insane? It's freezing cold!" Kevin protests. Scotty laughs out loud and pushes him gently backward as he teases:
"That's right! Don't be an old prune! Don't act your age! Do what you like to do! Make a snow angel with me." Scotty lets himself fall in the snow and flaps his arms and legs to create an angel in the snow. Kevin hesitates, but then he lies down in the snow next to Scotty.
"Move over, you amateur!" He says and forgets all about the cold. He moves his arms and legs and soon enough the angels merge a bit at the ends. They both giggle like little children until Kevin flings a handful of snow at Scotty. This is turn makes Scotty throw his first snowball of the year and within seconds they pelt snowballs at each other.
They dive, duck and dodge to avoid getting hit until, out of breath from laughter, Kevin calls for a truce.
"I can't go on. I'm too out of shape for this." Kevin giggles. He nearly slips, but Scotty manages to catch him just in time and Kevin ends up in Scotty's arms. For a quiet moment they just stare at each other, both breathing heavily. Scotty cups Kevin's face with his hands.
"You know, I usually don't get romantically involved with guests. It's unprofessional and it usually leads to heartbreak. At the end of the holiday, the person you like leaves you because he wants or needs to go back to where he came from.
I, on the other hand, want to stay here. I don't want to uproot my life for someone who wouldn't do the same for me. After a few mistakes, I've given up on romance. It just easier that way. Less painful."
"I see. I get that. I'm sorry if I've given you the idea that..."
"... However..." Scotty goes on. "Easy isn't what it's cracked up to be. Difficult is sometimes good, you know. It forces you to do things you didn't think you could." The blank look Kevin him shows Scotty that he has no clue what Scotty means.
"I can feel the attraction between us. It's weird, but I noticed it straight away and... I don't know, maybe I've been alone too long, but it almost feels as if we got put together on purpose. What are the odds of a patron knowing how he can help me behind the bar? Of running into each other in the most unlikely place in town? You getting sick enough to go back to your room, only to be forgotten, so I have to come and get you?"
"It does sound a bit far-fetched, but it happened to us..." Kevin replies.
"Exactly. Almost like we're 'forced' to be together."
"You think it means something? On some cosmic level?" Kevin seems to doubt it.
"I don't think we're that important, on a 'cosmic' level, but I don't think it's coincidence."
"Ssssooo, what do you mean... exactly?" Kevin carefully wants to know. Scotty doesn't answer right away. He takes time to think before he thoughtfully answers:
"It would seem that we're both on a crossroad in our lives. Maybe... we need each other to move on?" Kevin has to admit he had hoped for something more physical and not so spiritual, but if Scotty needs help with something, he would like to give that help.
"Sorry, that came out wrong and way more spiritual than I meant to.... What I mean is... I think you're very attractive and I think you like me too... There's just you and me and ... I think we're both lonely, but I wonder if maybe we can be lonely together?..." Scotty speaks hesitantly, hoping and praying that he didn't get the signals wrong.
Kevin lets the words sink in.
"So, what you're suggesting is..."
"I don't see any reason to play games. Look up. The snow just keeps falling. There's only you and me. I'm not asking for a total commitment. Or for 'eternal love '. I don't believe in that anymore. And I don't think you do either." Kevin shakes his head. "Doesn't mean we can't ... Do you have any idea how much I want to kiss you?"
"No." Kevin shakes his head.
"Well, I do. Want to kiss you." Scotty smiles.
"Don't let me stop you?" Kevin replies carefully, still not fully comprehending what Scotty just told him.
"Really? You want me to? You're alright with it?" Scotty asks.He can see how Kevin takes a deep breath, tries to answer, can't come with a clever reply and eventually shakily sighs:
"Yeah."
Scotty laughs softly before leaning in closer to Kevin. Kevin's lips part. He stills seems to be unsure, but when Scotty's lips touch his, all insecurity is gone. The first kiss is followed by a second and soon enough they can't stop. Their kisses are light and playful and only makes Kevin hungry for more.
He reaches up and pulls Scotty's head down closer to his, intensifying their kiss and this time Scotty puts his arms around Kevin, hands sliding down Kevin's back, gently forcing him closer.
A snowflake melts on Kevin's skin and slides inside his coat. He shivers at the sudden cold and Scotty lets go of him.
"Shall we go inside? Get dry and warm?" He asks. Kevin can only nods silently, regretting that their kiss is over.
He looks into the living-room from the outside and sees the fire. Their drinks are still on the table. He longs to be back in Scotty's arms. Scotty's hand slips into his and he guides Kevin back inside. Once back in the kitchen, Scotty kisses Kevin again, this time not asking for permission.
He doesn't need it, because Kevin immediately replies to the kiss. Without the thick winter coats between them Kevin becomes quite aware of how muscular Scotty is and he has to admit that it feels wonderful to be held in strong arms. Slowly Scotty breaks their kiss, noticing that both of them are getting quite aroused.
"How far do you want us to go with this?" Scotty asks. Kevin has trouble getting his brain organized. His lips are still burning and he can't ignore the fact one part of his anatomy has come to life with an absolute need for satisfaction.
"Can we take it slow? Just stick to kissing for now?" He asks quietly.
He's afraid he would sound desperate if he would beg Scotty to just do with him whatever he wants. Scotty bows his head to hide his smile. Kevin's body is against his and there's no way that they will stick to kissing only, but he doesn't want to push too hard on Kevin either. He wouldn't want Kevin to feel forced into it.
"Let's get on the couch and warm ourselves up in front of the fire?" Scotty suggests. Kevin nods and follows Scotty back into the living room. But once they sit down, all it takes is one look and Scotty's lips are on Kevin's again. This time Kevin doesn't want to wait anymore either.
He lies down on his back and takes Scotty on top of him. Scotty's body moves against his. Scotty's hands are on his skin, slipping under Kevin's sweater. Kevin moans as the soft touch sends shivers down his spine. He pushes his body up against Scotty's. Scotty's fingers slide to the front and rest on the button on Kevin's jeans.
"Yes?" Scotty whispers in Kevin's ear.
"Oh, yes, please... Please!" Kevin begs. Just to tease, Scotty gently lets his fingers slide over the hardness, before carefully pushing the jeans down. He can feel Kevin react with anticipation.
When Scotty's fingers eventually find their way around Kevin's hard member, Kevin almost cries out with the need for satisfaction. Scotty lets him, trying to slowly bring him closer to his orgasm, but Kevin is too eager. He pushes himself up. Scotty can hear Kevin beg him not to stop and Scotty knows that Kevin will not last long.
With a little smile of satisfaction, he takes Kevin over the edge. There's something so delicious in hearing Kevin's breath hitch, followed by the loud moan as he comes over Scotty's hand.
"I'm sorry. That was too fast and .... I didn't even think of you and..." Kevin stammers.
Scotty silences him with a kiss.
"Shhh, it's alright. We have all the time in the world." For a moment they remain quietly in each other's arms, while Kevin calms down and enjoys the many little kisses Scotty gives him, until they have to move a bit to give each other some space on the couch.
"I'm just not sure how long I can take this 'slow'-thing." Scotty admits quietly. Kevin's hand slides down Scotty's belly, past the elastic band of Scotty's sweatpants, finding the hardness he seeks. He can hear Scotty sigh softly and he grins as he looks up at Scotty,
"I think we can skip the 'slow'-stage." and his hand tightens around Scotty's cock.
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End of Chapter 5
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