not going down without a fightcomebacktoyouDecember 31 2004, 15:26:53 UTC
first of all, i havent done shit on jacel's livejournal except for comment asking for a "friend" because i think she is pretty and has a good taste in music and is assosciated with some of my friends & i like adding people with such qualities.
this is the last time i am ever speaking //directly or indirectly// to you, so i'm letting it all out.
why is it odd for me to want to be friends with her? because you think i am satan's gift to earth sent to destroy everything and everyone in your life? well guess again buddy. i have a life of my own, and believe it or not, i do not exist solely to make you miserable. i just wanted to clear everything up and try and be friends with you again, but i see now that that will never happen.
i talked to cameron yesterday, and he said that you, erika, travis, prater, etc. all hate me. now you can do whatever the hell you want, but get your facts straight joseph. what have i done to you to ruin your life so much. let's look at the charts, shall we.
i was holding out for you, i really liked you, hell i thought i loved you...and you use me then date katherine, who you told me just three days earlier you could never date. then i call you and bitch you out for all you're worth because you hurt me worse than anyone ever has before. for assuming things that werent true and just for being an ass to me. not to mention turning all my lexington friends against me. and what had i done? honestly. Exist??? is my existance such a problem, especially when i am living three hours away and only asking to make contact with you every now and then because i still cared about you as a person??? i guess so.
this is just ridiculous now. i havent done anything to jacel, i havent done anything to you, and if you want to hate me, feel free. if you want to regret everything, that's your choice. i dont think so highly of you myself. mostly because of how youve treated me. we've both changed joseph, neither one of us is the same, we will never be friends again, much less best friends. but stop talking to my friends about me--you dont understand.
why the hell do you hate me. i should be the one hating you...and actually, i think i do. stay out of my life by not talking badly about me to other people, just shut up about me and i'll stay out of your life. but as far as friends go, i'll be friends with whoever i want to be friends with.
whatever
PS and again, i havent said anything on jacels LJ, i dont even know her, believe it or not.
Re: not going down without a fightmare_diemDecember 31 2004, 17:37:13 UTC
we all hate you because you treated us like shit with your seretonin fucking imbalance and how you'd go weeks without saying a word to us how you took us for granted and totally ditched us just to feel better about yourself how you fucking lied and dont ever say you never lied because that in itself is a fucking lie. Yeven if you arent intending to destroy my life and my life with jacel you'll do a wonderous job of it. you use everything to your excuse and feel a if you cn get away with anything well guess what you cant. if you cared for me you would have left me when you were so fucking in love with bradley because that would have been the right thing to do. I would neve be with someone and like sonme one else just as much if not even more. you did talk all kinds of shit about me to other people and i'm not fucking retarded. I'm not the only one that has warned everything about you there are a few more.and i'll tell you exactly why they hate you Travis: he is erika's boyfriend they love eachother dearly and you treated erika like shit so therefore he hates your existanc and i think he has every right to. Erika: you treated her like shit took her for granted as a friend she tried so hard to hod your friendship together and you didnt do anything to help. Me: i hate you you neglected me as much as you were good to me. So that kinda evens out the balance. you treated my friends like shit ie Erika you lied to me you went weeks on end and didnt say anything just to see how far it wuld go i honestly dont think you ever really cared for me because if you did you wouldnt have treated me like shit. While we dated i neve once did anything to hurt you i tried my hardest to be good to you and i guess i did. maybe i wanted more than you but that's not important. you just act like you have never ever done anything wrong but oh god oyu have. after we broke up that was it o hell it should have been you use everything to your advantage and try to turn everything againt everyone else. i could have been happer in hell. Jacel on the other hand is actually nice to me all the time she doesnt avoid talking to me for 2 weeks and then act as if nothing happened. Prater: dont you dare bring my brother in this i swear to god. he hates you because i do wherever i go he goes you dont mess with family. he just didnt like you because no matter what you always acted as if you were better than everyone else. And jsut because they dont have a fucking 4. whatever gpa and didnt get 11th out of 10 in the elite school in this stateand then get in it doesnt mean that you are any better we all bleed the same. you have to realize that you are no better than the heroin addict beside you. and i really dont care if you did or didnt say anything on her lj you may as well have. whoever did will pay. but you trying to be friends with her is just alittle bit strange because this would be exactly like my stepmom and my brother kevin's mom being friends it is just odd. you just dont understand i cant explain. i wouldnt try to be firneds with your new boyfriend or wantever if you have on or not just because they play thrash metal and like Kurt Cobain it just doesnt work like that. you have done alot to me i honestly beleive that the only reason that you wanted to be with me again is so that when you're away i'll be faithful because that's how i am and you'll do whatever the hell you want to and then come homw to me and act like nothing happened and you'e been waiting for me for so long. erika says you are portective of what was once yours when it is gone and that's true. you just dont want me to move on you dont want me to do anything but to relapse into oblivion adn mourn over you leaving me and be all down on myself because you left me. well i moved on and i'm with Jacel now and she makes me reall happy she makes me glad that i am still alive she gives me a reason to wake up the next day. go away and never come back dont haunt me anymore
Re: not going down without a fightcomebacktoyouDecember 31 2004, 21:07:09 UTC
I DONT WANT TO GET BACK TOGETHER WITH YOU AND I HAVENT FOR FOUR MONTHS OR SO ALL I ASK IS THAT YOU STOP TALKING SHIT ABOUT ME WHEN I APOLOGIZED FOR ALL I WAS WORTH. I WONT GO AWAY UNTIL YOU UNDERSTAND THIS
Re: not going down without a fightmare_diemDecember 31 2004, 21:59:36 UTC
I DONT TALK SHIT ABOUT YOU TO EVERYONE IF ANYONE ASKS ABOUT YOU OR ASKS ABOUT ANYTHING RELATED TO YOU I SAY I DONT WANT TO FUCKING TALK ABOUT IT NOW GO AWAY I KNOW YOU APOLOGIZED DAMN I THINK I'VE MADE THAT CLEAR AND I DONT HAVE TO FREAKIN ANSWER TO YOU SO LEAVE
Re: not going down without a fightcomebacktoyouJanuary 1 2005, 02:07:58 UTC
IF YOUVE SUPPOSEDLY MADE IT CLEAR, THEN WHY ARE YOU STILL CALLING ME A BITCH AND ACCUSING ME OF THINGS I DIDNT DO...AND ACTING LIKE I NEVER APOLOGIZED. ACTIONS SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS, YEAH YOU DONT HAVE TO ANSWER TO ME ALL I ASK IS THAT YOU FORGET EVERYTHING ABOUT ME AND US OR WHATEVER THE FUCK IS RELATED OR ASSOSCIATED WITH US I WAS HOPING IT WOULDNT END THIS WAY BUT IT HAS. FROM NOW ON WE NEVER DATED NEVER KNEW EACHOTHER AND YOUR LONGEST RELATIONSHIP IS OFFICIALLY WITH JACEL AND SHE IS YOUR FIRST KISS AND ALL THAT. FORGET IT ALL, FORGET ME, AND NEVER MENTION ME AGAIN, NEVER THINK OF ME AGAIN, AND I WILL RETURN THE FAVOR
this is the last time i am ever speaking //directly or indirectly// to you, so i'm letting it all out.
why is it odd for me to want to be friends with her? because you think i am satan's gift to earth sent to destroy everything and everyone in your life? well guess again buddy. i have a life of my own, and believe it or not, i do not exist solely to make you miserable. i just wanted to clear everything up and try and be friends with you again, but i see now that that will never happen.
i talked to cameron yesterday, and he said that you, erika, travis, prater, etc. all hate me. now you can do whatever the hell you want, but get your facts straight joseph. what have i done to you to ruin your life so much. let's look at the charts, shall we.
i was holding out for you, i really liked you, hell i thought i loved you...and you use me then date katherine, who you told me just three days earlier you could never date. then i call you and bitch you out for all you're worth because you hurt me worse than anyone ever has before. for assuming things that werent true and just for being an ass to me. not to mention turning all my lexington friends against me. and what had i done? honestly. Exist??? is my existance such a problem, especially when i am living three hours away and only asking to make contact with you every now and then because i still cared about you as a person??? i guess so.
this is just ridiculous now. i havent done anything to jacel, i havent done anything to you, and if you want to hate me, feel free. if you want to regret everything, that's your choice. i dont think so highly of you myself. mostly because of how youve treated me. we've both changed joseph, neither one of us is the same, we will never be friends again, much less best friends. but stop talking to my friends about me--you dont understand.
why the hell do you hate me. i should be the one hating you...and actually, i think i do. stay out of my life by not talking badly about me to other people, just shut up about me and i'll stay out of your life. but as far as friends go, i'll be friends with whoever i want to be friends with.
whatever
PS and again, i havent said anything on jacels LJ, i dont even know her, believe it or not.
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Travis: he is erika's boyfriend they love eachother dearly and you treated erika like shit so therefore he hates your existanc and i think he has every right to.
Erika: you treated her like shit took her for granted as a friend she tried so hard to hod your friendship together and you didnt do anything to help.
Me: i hate you you neglected me as much as you were good to me. So that kinda evens out the balance. you treated my friends like shit ie Erika you lied to me you went weeks on end and didnt say anything just to see how far it wuld go i honestly dont think you ever really cared for me because if you did you wouldnt have treated me like shit. While we dated i neve once did anything to hurt you i tried my hardest to be good to you and i guess i did. maybe i wanted more than you but that's not important. you just act like you have never ever done anything wrong but oh god oyu have. after we broke up that was it o hell it should have been you use everything to your advantage and try to turn everything againt everyone else. i could have been happer in hell. Jacel on the other hand is actually nice to me all the time she doesnt avoid talking to me for 2 weeks and then act as if nothing happened.
Prater: dont you dare bring my brother in this i swear to god. he hates you because i do wherever i go he goes you dont mess with family. he just didnt like you because no matter what you always acted as if you were better than everyone else.
And jsut because they dont have a fucking 4. whatever gpa and didnt get 11th out of 10 in the elite school in this stateand then get in it doesnt mean that you are any better we all bleed the same. you have to realize that you are no better than the heroin addict beside you.
and i really dont care if you did or didnt say anything on her lj you may as well have. whoever did will pay. but you trying to be friends with her is just alittle bit strange because this would be exactly like my stepmom and my brother kevin's mom being friends it is just odd. you just dont understand i cant explain. i wouldnt try to be firneds with your new boyfriend or wantever if you have on or not just because they play thrash metal and like Kurt Cobain it just doesnt work like that. you have done alot to me i honestly beleive that the only reason that you wanted to be with me again is so that when you're away i'll be faithful because that's how i am and you'll do whatever the hell you want to and then come homw to me and act like nothing happened and you'e been waiting for me for so long. erika says you are portective of what was once yours when it is gone and that's true. you just dont want me to move on you dont want me to do anything but to relapse into oblivion adn mourn over you leaving me and be all down on myself because you left me. well i moved on and i'm with Jacel now and she makes me reall happy she makes me glad that i am still alive she gives me a reason to wake up the next day.
go away and never come back dont haunt me anymore
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I KNOW YOU APOLOGIZED DAMN I THINK I'VE MADE THAT CLEAR AND I DONT HAVE TO FREAKIN ANSWER TO YOU SO LEAVE
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