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got back form church tonight it was cool. I am really trying to find a strong relegious base like I once had. I am looking into Buddhism againI have apocket Buddah and all and am reading some literature and at the same time I am as seriously doing the Christianity path so I am lost with intent of finding.
Plus I went to the mall and got some clothes. I also bought pink chucks but I had to get my money back because my mom thaught they were alittle "gay" I didn't see that but I have the return receipt to prove that I was the other guy to buy a pair. I got some pants that aren't kakhis. Black Dickies. I got a Mudvayne shirt,Shadows Fall,and Kurdt Cobain shirt with him wearing a dress. It is awesome. But yeah I sound like a girl talking about my wonderful shopping day but hey it was fun.
I accepted some stuff tonight that I should have seen a while back.... Oh well.As Axl says "Nothing lasts forever and we both know hearts can change". So now I know better than to hangon to something like that although I still would like to talk and be a freind the relationship apaprently wasn't ment to be. Although it was the best one I have ever been in I dunno where I'm going with this. Everything happens for a reason so maybe later down the road I'll have honestly learned something from all of it. Maybe later I'll post what I feel I have learned and got out of it and all but that's kinda personal and all but it's not likt the lj community doesn't know. But you are truly a great person.
In other news.
I think I'm liking this girl _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ I don't really know much about her but she is cool so. Maybe I have some sort of a chance in trying. I have changed in many good ways I guess. I don't sweat the little stuff as much now only about 98% of the time lol. I don't lie like I did and I honestly don't know why I did that other than to fill in emptiness in conversation but that silence is supposed to be there. That was a stupid thing to do. Shame on me. I think that my wanting of a certain drug is completely gone. Even after I guit it and stopped feeling and addiction i still got tempted every now and then. No more skittles and no more not eating to forget about it. Yeah I did that because it worked that's why I only weighed 115 pounds for a long while now I weigh about aprox* 15 pounds more although I don't look it I have gained some weight. Well I better go.
Joseph
Plus I went to the mall and got some clothes. I also bought pink chucks but I had to get my money back because my mom thaught they were alittle "gay" I didn't see that but I have the return receipt to prove that I was the other guy to buy a pair. I got some pants that aren't kakhis. Black Dickies. I got a Mudvayne shirt,Shadows Fall,and Kurdt Cobain shirt with him wearing a dress. It is awesome. But yeah I sound like a girl talking about my wonderful shopping day but hey it was fun.
I accepted some stuff tonight that I should have seen a while back.... Oh well.As Axl says "Nothing lasts forever and we both know hearts can change". So now I know better than to hangon to something like that although I still would like to talk and be a freind the relationship apaprently wasn't ment to be. Although it was the best one I have ever been in I dunno where I'm going with this. Everything happens for a reason so maybe later down the road I'll have honestly learned something from all of it. Maybe later I'll post what I feel I have learned and got out of it and all but that's kinda personal and all but it's not likt the lj community doesn't know. But you are truly a great person.
In other news.
I think I'm liking this girl _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ I don't really know much about her but she is cool so. Maybe I have some sort of a chance in trying. I have changed in many good ways I guess. I don't sweat the little stuff as much now only about 98% of the time lol. I don't lie like I did and I honestly don't know why I did that other than to fill in emptiness in conversation but that silence is supposed to be there. That was a stupid thing to do. Shame on me. I think that my wanting of a certain drug is completely gone. Even after I guit it and stopped feeling and addiction i still got tempted every now and then. No more skittles and no more not eating to forget about it. Yeah I did that because it worked that's why I only weighed 115 pounds for a long while now I weigh about aprox* 15 pounds more although I don't look it I have gained some weight. Well I better go.
Joseph