oh friends
So, ever since I was in high school I always considered myself to be a "floater". This is one who doesn't like to "belong" to a specific group or clique. I was sure that this was the way to go. Never dealing with the drama of cliques and being friends with everyone! I also thought that once I got to college, the drama would end. Boy was I wrong...
I love to hang out with all of my friends. The only thing is that all of my friends are not friends with each other. So when things happen like my birthday, or trips (spring break), I feel like I am stuck choosing between friends. Within the groups, I'll usually have at least one person who I can consider to be a best friend...but what do I do when my best friends don't like each other? I swear I ask for as much shit God can throw at me. Geez!
Now I'm facing even more delimma. I wish I could spend more time with some of my friends, but it never seems to work out. And it hurts when I find out that they just decided to stop calling and inviting me because I said no the time before...especially when it was something that you did together as a regular. It just sucks because if I'm not with one friend, the assumption is made that i'm hanging out with the other when really i'm alone! And when i do decide to hang out, I catch shit for never being there? Well take note...
I do not CHOOSE between friends, nor to I RANK them according to their importance to me. I share a different friendship with each one of my friends, and no two are exactly the same. I just wish some of my friends would see how much I actually sacrifice to just have an hour coffee break or quick lunch. It's not that I think I am better than anyone, I just have a TON of things going on each day...but its my fault. I float.
However, even though I gripe about being a floater, I still would rather do that than stick to one small click. It's good to be diverse.
I love to hang out with all of my friends. The only thing is that all of my friends are not friends with each other. So when things happen like my birthday, or trips (spring break), I feel like I am stuck choosing between friends. Within the groups, I'll usually have at least one person who I can consider to be a best friend...but what do I do when my best friends don't like each other? I swear I ask for as much shit God can throw at me. Geez!
Now I'm facing even more delimma. I wish I could spend more time with some of my friends, but it never seems to work out. And it hurts when I find out that they just decided to stop calling and inviting me because I said no the time before...especially when it was something that you did together as a regular. It just sucks because if I'm not with one friend, the assumption is made that i'm hanging out with the other when really i'm alone! And when i do decide to hang out, I catch shit for never being there? Well take note...
I do not CHOOSE between friends, nor to I RANK them according to their importance to me. I share a different friendship with each one of my friends, and no two are exactly the same. I just wish some of my friends would see how much I actually sacrifice to just have an hour coffee break or quick lunch. It's not that I think I am better than anyone, I just have a TON of things going on each day...but its my fault. I float.
However, even though I gripe about being a floater, I still would rather do that than stick to one small click. It's good to be diverse.