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Oh my god! I had a baby!
Scarlett Alexandra Krzesniak, born at 7:58am on March 16th! She was 8 pounds, 9 ounces! I knew she would be a biggie!!
oh my god. childbirth IS SOOOO HARD AND SCARY. Okay, I woke up on the 15th with some cramping that was coming in waves. Progressively they kept getting stronger until 6pm, when I figured it had been enough time and I should go get a cervical check in triage. Bad mistake! I should have waited. The nurse couldn’t find my cervix so she fished around down there for forever, causing me tons of pain. My contractions weren’t that bad still (although at the time I thought they were, little did I know!!) and when they finally found it, I was only 1.5cm dilated and 90% effaced. So they were like "stay here for awhile" but I was soo pissed and discouraged, I told them I would just go home and take a bath and hang out until things progressed. Not to mention the triage room sucks! It was a terrible hard bed and you had to stay on your back with all these monitors, which was the worse position for my contractions.
When we got home, around 8pm, I took and bath and my contractions started getting REALLY PAINFUL. They were also REALLY CLOSE TOGETHER, like 2 minutes apart, so I had no break! I called the triage nurse and told her how much pain I was in (at this point I was experiencing back labor, although I didn’t know it yet, I just figured contractions were supposed to be in the front and the back and all throughout my entire body, radiating a hot fiery pain that you can only imagine if you have experienced it!) and I BEGGED the nurse for drugs over the phone. She told me to wait 30 minutes and then come in. Well, I waited 30 minutes but they were the worst 30 minutes of my life, everything was sooo excruciating. I made matt rub my back every time and I breathed through every one, although breathing is a crock and is NO GOOD when you had the pain I had. So matt, being the wise and in control one, suggested we just go to the hospital and demand drugs at that point. Who was I to argue with the one who wanted to relive my pain!? So, as hard as it was to get down the stairs, I did it. As hard as it was to find ANY comfortable position when trying to get from my house to the hospital and back in triage, I did it. I almost died about 20 times on the way there though.
so, when I got back to triage, the lady was like "is the pain in your back?" and I was like "uhhh yeah! REALLY BAD!" (At this point I could not do ANYTHING during contractions, except wave my hands at matt to make him rub my back and breathe harder than I have ever breathed before) When the nurses realized it was back labor, I think they started to take pity on me, and started immediately on getting me a room. I was 3cm and 100% effaced by then, it was about 10pm-11pm.
It took soooo long to get me an epidural, at least an hour past that. My contractions were a total "10" on the pain scale (they asked me "on a scale from 1-10, what is your pain like?" about 50 times, not a cool thing to bug a woman in labor!) They were also about a minute apart at this point, and lasting at least 2 minutes, although each contraction felt like an hour. ANYWAY, after all this pain, the epidural guy came in and he became my ultimate hero. It took away ALL feeling, which is just what I wanted. It was amazing, and I was happy as a clam for several hours after that. My nurse told me I was a whole new woman! lol. I totally was. I was smiling, happy, and excited! I can’t imagine why anyone wouldn’t want an epidural, get one immediately if you have a baby!!
Anyway, for several hours I lay painless and happy, trying to get some rest, but it was hard with all the wires and things attached to me. I think I fell asleep for a few minutes around 4am....that was when my water broke. OH MY GOD, IT EXPLODED all over the bed. When it broke it literally made the sound of a water balloon being thrown on pavement, "ka-boom" "splish!!" it totally made me laugh like a crazy woman. By this point I was crazy though, I had been up and laboring for close to 20 hours.
Around 5am they checked my cervix again, I was completely dilated! AND my epidural was wearing off, so I was also feeling some pain, which was good so I could push through them. So, I began pushing. And pushing, and pushing. I pushed for 2 and a half hours total. I pushed using stirrups, I pushed using people holding my legs, I pushed using a squat bar, and I pushed and pushed and pushed. My first nurse was awesome, she was a great coach and kept me encouraged. then the day shift came in at 7am. They didnt help me at all, I was basically pushing by myself with no one there to encourage me. It was really frustrating, and by this point I had been in labor for 23 hours, so I was so so tired. My temperature started to go up, and the baby's heart rate started to rise and fall and things started to turn scary at that point.
The doctors shoved oxygen masks on my face, they told me to resist the urge to push to give the baby a break, they told me only to push through a couple of times per contraction, instead of the 4 or 5 times my body was telling me to do. THAT did not make me happy, and this is the point where I had no drugs left in me at all. I was literally SCREAMING in pain, and on the verge of tears because they told me not to push through the pain. The nurse was a bitch and didn’t make me feel better at all. I hate her! Anyway, after a very looong time, the doctor came in and told me they were going to use the vacuum to get her out because both I and the baby were getting tired and sick. I didn’t realize how scary the situation was until afterwards, I was just relieved they were gonna get her out of me! The pain was way too intense...UNTIL she started coming out. I always thought on those baby shows, when a woman screams in pain, it's just for drama for the show. um, no. I SCREAMED AND SCREAMED. It was the most painful thing ever when she was coming out.
but then, she came out :) and it was over. and I cried along with her. You cant imagine how overwhelming the experience of giving birth is until you actually do it. She is so beautiful and terrible and I am completely in love with her. She smells amazing! She makes me laugh when she farts and when she frowns she looks just like matt. Oh yeah I love it when I make her burp, it is so cute! She has the cutest little nose and little lips, and I love her. she is sooooo amazing. She is the best baby in the world. Seriously, all the pain I just described (as indescribable as it was) didn’t mean much of anything after she came out. So yeah, see for yourself:
minutes old!!!
see how pale i am? lol i was sooooo tired.
proud papa!
well anyway she totally just exploded in her diaper so i gotta go change her. :) More mommy updates later!
Scarlett Alexandra Krzesniak, born at 7:58am on March 16th! She was 8 pounds, 9 ounces! I knew she would be a biggie!!
oh my god. childbirth IS SOOOO HARD AND SCARY. Okay, I woke up on the 15th with some cramping that was coming in waves. Progressively they kept getting stronger until 6pm, when I figured it had been enough time and I should go get a cervical check in triage. Bad mistake! I should have waited. The nurse couldn’t find my cervix so she fished around down there for forever, causing me tons of pain. My contractions weren’t that bad still (although at the time I thought they were, little did I know!!) and when they finally found it, I was only 1.5cm dilated and 90% effaced. So they were like "stay here for awhile" but I was soo pissed and discouraged, I told them I would just go home and take a bath and hang out until things progressed. Not to mention the triage room sucks! It was a terrible hard bed and you had to stay on your back with all these monitors, which was the worse position for my contractions.
When we got home, around 8pm, I took and bath and my contractions started getting REALLY PAINFUL. They were also REALLY CLOSE TOGETHER, like 2 minutes apart, so I had no break! I called the triage nurse and told her how much pain I was in (at this point I was experiencing back labor, although I didn’t know it yet, I just figured contractions were supposed to be in the front and the back and all throughout my entire body, radiating a hot fiery pain that you can only imagine if you have experienced it!) and I BEGGED the nurse for drugs over the phone. She told me to wait 30 minutes and then come in. Well, I waited 30 minutes but they were the worst 30 minutes of my life, everything was sooo excruciating. I made matt rub my back every time and I breathed through every one, although breathing is a crock and is NO GOOD when you had the pain I had. So matt, being the wise and in control one, suggested we just go to the hospital and demand drugs at that point. Who was I to argue with the one who wanted to relive my pain!? So, as hard as it was to get down the stairs, I did it. As hard as it was to find ANY comfortable position when trying to get from my house to the hospital and back in triage, I did it. I almost died about 20 times on the way there though.
so, when I got back to triage, the lady was like "is the pain in your back?" and I was like "uhhh yeah! REALLY BAD!" (At this point I could not do ANYTHING during contractions, except wave my hands at matt to make him rub my back and breathe harder than I have ever breathed before) When the nurses realized it was back labor, I think they started to take pity on me, and started immediately on getting me a room. I was 3cm and 100% effaced by then, it was about 10pm-11pm.
It took soooo long to get me an epidural, at least an hour past that. My contractions were a total "10" on the pain scale (they asked me "on a scale from 1-10, what is your pain like?" about 50 times, not a cool thing to bug a woman in labor!) They were also about a minute apart at this point, and lasting at least 2 minutes, although each contraction felt like an hour. ANYWAY, after all this pain, the epidural guy came in and he became my ultimate hero. It took away ALL feeling, which is just what I wanted. It was amazing, and I was happy as a clam for several hours after that. My nurse told me I was a whole new woman! lol. I totally was. I was smiling, happy, and excited! I can’t imagine why anyone wouldn’t want an epidural, get one immediately if you have a baby!!
Anyway, for several hours I lay painless and happy, trying to get some rest, but it was hard with all the wires and things attached to me. I think I fell asleep for a few minutes around 4am....that was when my water broke. OH MY GOD, IT EXPLODED all over the bed. When it broke it literally made the sound of a water balloon being thrown on pavement, "ka-boom" "splish!!" it totally made me laugh like a crazy woman. By this point I was crazy though, I had been up and laboring for close to 20 hours.
Around 5am they checked my cervix again, I was completely dilated! AND my epidural was wearing off, so I was also feeling some pain, which was good so I could push through them. So, I began pushing. And pushing, and pushing. I pushed for 2 and a half hours total. I pushed using stirrups, I pushed using people holding my legs, I pushed using a squat bar, and I pushed and pushed and pushed. My first nurse was awesome, she was a great coach and kept me encouraged. then the day shift came in at 7am. They didnt help me at all, I was basically pushing by myself with no one there to encourage me. It was really frustrating, and by this point I had been in labor for 23 hours, so I was so so tired. My temperature started to go up, and the baby's heart rate started to rise and fall and things started to turn scary at that point.
The doctors shoved oxygen masks on my face, they told me to resist the urge to push to give the baby a break, they told me only to push through a couple of times per contraction, instead of the 4 or 5 times my body was telling me to do. THAT did not make me happy, and this is the point where I had no drugs left in me at all. I was literally SCREAMING in pain, and on the verge of tears because they told me not to push through the pain. The nurse was a bitch and didn’t make me feel better at all. I hate her! Anyway, after a very looong time, the doctor came in and told me they were going to use the vacuum to get her out because both I and the baby were getting tired and sick. I didn’t realize how scary the situation was until afterwards, I was just relieved they were gonna get her out of me! The pain was way too intense...UNTIL she started coming out. I always thought on those baby shows, when a woman screams in pain, it's just for drama for the show. um, no. I SCREAMED AND SCREAMED. It was the most painful thing ever when she was coming out.
but then, she came out :) and it was over. and I cried along with her. You cant imagine how overwhelming the experience of giving birth is until you actually do it. She is so beautiful and terrible and I am completely in love with her. She smells amazing! She makes me laugh when she farts and when she frowns she looks just like matt. Oh yeah I love it when I make her burp, it is so cute! She has the cutest little nose and little lips, and I love her. she is sooooo amazing. She is the best baby in the world. Seriously, all the pain I just described (as indescribable as it was) didn’t mean much of anything after she came out. So yeah, see for yourself:
minutes old!!!
see how pale i am? lol i was sooooo tired.
proud papa!
well anyway she totally just exploded in her diaper so i gotta go change her. :) More mommy updates later!