A Special Thanks to the Man Who Invented the Fort
Along with my happiness there's always this sense of emotional and mental un-rest. For a large portion of the last 48 hours I could say that I was tremendously happy, and at times, in my half-sleep stuper even felt euphoric... (and I could also say that I peed a lot yesterday. I WILL say that in fact... seeing as that is just what I said. But enough about pee, let's talk about you.) ...but I could also say that during the moments where I wasn't happy, and some of the moments where I was, I was kind of displeased with myself. I completely ignore the thoughts in my head that I appreciate thinking the most... all of the things that I used to write about... that used to make me feel good about every decision I made... for the longest time I've been ignoring my own advice... I know what I need, but for some reason I just can't seem to put my life back to the way I want it to be... I know exactly what I need to do, but I don't know if I will, and I don't know that if I try to, that I'll go about it the right way, even though I know what the right way is. I need to stop doing the exact opposite of what I know I should do... the worst times of my life have all come about as a result of my inability to listen to myself. I can't fuck up again. Not now, no no no, everything is going far too well for that... lately I've finally felt really excited to do certain things. I feel like I'd forgotten the person I used to be... and lately I've been reminded of who that was, and how much I NEED to be that person... because now that I've been reminded of the way I used to be, I realize how much I hate the attitude I've acquired through the circumstances of my current social activities. I could be worse, granted, but I'm definately not pleased with myself as of late... well, in the past year or so. I can't emphasize the importance of good friends enough... REAL FREINDS. From here on, everything gets better. I'm making sure of it...
On a lighter note: forts are the best, christosaurus day was awesome, eat your poo, eat extra large hummous, eat my victory, I should fire myself just for having you around, K double OOOO Shhhh, I talk only crazy talk at certain levels of fatigue, thanks for the card hot socks.
On a lighter note: forts are the best, christosaurus day was awesome, eat your poo, eat extra large hummous, eat my victory, I should fire myself just for having you around, K double OOOO Shhhh, I talk only crazy talk at certain levels of fatigue, thanks for the card hot socks.