May 19, 2006 00:55
Do you feel like your compromising? cause i do. Maybe i dont but i see it around me all the time. For example i know this girl that owns her boyfriend, not letting him to his own devices unless his devices include her. Yet at the same time, his friendships are based on parties and small talk. I cant say i dont owe him for being a good listener but thats when he had his own devices... by proximity of course.
then i know someone who listens yet contradits with late appologies. then its my fault for not allowing him to one of my parties. QUESTION: why am i the only one who has parties and why do my friends only get more friends because of me, is this town lacking personality and creativity?
but wait! ill just be disrespected by a friend and some random going at it in the next room? like i dont have ears.... i dunno i expect from others what i provide to them.
im ruthless now i wont deny it. Im quick to move on, highly decisive extremely expectant and tollerate little immaturuty... maybe ive become dull or old. which i dont think is the case, i just grew up and saw the joys of simple things. i see how easy it is to speak your mind and not think twice cause if someone cant handle the truth im wasting my time and they have a hard time looking in the mirror.
i miss school, where my friends dont piss me off, since when should frineds piss you off eh?
my long weekend, big bucks with jaye and work! some real excitment