The nights get colder
its weird how theres still some night, some things that take your mind back to the bad times... i dunno its been such a good week so far, pabs and peelz have been a HUUUGE inspiration on how to live life positvely, but im not sure what it is, everywhere i turn i feel like im making stupid choices. Flip it back, things with JO and I are going awesome, im so happy shes coming home and we'll finally have some time together. But am i meeting my potential, with school... definately not, i could be doing better in ceramics. It might not be that i could do better, but my work is so different from that of everyone else, maybe i just dont know what that should mean.
I have all these amazing blessings, Peelz and Pablo, mandy, joel, cait and cat, mona, angela, how much raw inspiration flows out of henry, rose, george, melissa... everyone.
It might be that i stopped dogging on myself, i realized that one person can have a deep effect on you yes... but only if u let it and im not about to take that path again. The boys are still my family, sure its been a little off here and there, but i said i would be honest boys.
I still miss my Hamo and barely get a chance to talk to kat, but theyre in my heart as always
Im gonna miss karina like mad for the next 6 months, but mexico couldnt be more Karina
The extended net has given me so much, alix, cam, jordan, kash, marcie, the twins, merpaw, butt, g, v, carly and the numerous others i forgot. uve been great for wild conversation of all sorts.
You have to be honest with urself and accept the bad times, you ask for forgivness and resist temptation... im 7 months clean from hurting myself and oh how life has been over the past 7 months... would i rewind to december 26th 2004? maybe, but i wouldnt be where i am now without any of that.
and she told me "it gets better"
I have all these amazing blessings, Peelz and Pablo, mandy, joel, cait and cat, mona, angela, how much raw inspiration flows out of henry, rose, george, melissa... everyone.
It might be that i stopped dogging on myself, i realized that one person can have a deep effect on you yes... but only if u let it and im not about to take that path again. The boys are still my family, sure its been a little off here and there, but i said i would be honest boys.
I still miss my Hamo and barely get a chance to talk to kat, but theyre in my heart as always
Im gonna miss karina like mad for the next 6 months, but mexico couldnt be more Karina
The extended net has given me so much, alix, cam, jordan, kash, marcie, the twins, merpaw, butt, g, v, carly and the numerous others i forgot. uve been great for wild conversation of all sorts.
You have to be honest with urself and accept the bad times, you ask for forgivness and resist temptation... im 7 months clean from hurting myself and oh how life has been over the past 7 months... would i rewind to december 26th 2004? maybe, but i wouldnt be where i am now without any of that.
and she told me "it gets better"