tonight
well tonight i dont even know how i feel, the girl im really gettin into and was partyin with tonight was lookin amazing but then her girls wanted her to do some shit with them and me and her talked and she wanted me to leave im glad she was honest and told me the only reason is because she doesnt want me to see her high on e i respect that alot i mean she hasnt lied to me once yet and its great but it sucks cuz i wanted to chill with her abit more tonight but at least i get to see her tomorrow which in any case is great. shes a girl id love to be in a relationship with and we both talked about having a relationship and we both agreed for now to just be friends and once i friendship grows then get into a relationship but first be fwbs lol i have to actually laugh at that cuz shes never had friends with benefits as i found out from like all her girls. God im actually fallin for this girl hard a friend of hers asked me wat i would do if a guy was doin something to her and i was just my honest self and told them" if it was somethin she didnt want or was being forced on her id fuckin kill the guy or guys" when her friend heard that she said thats good. its funny all her friends know im into her and they probably think shes into me cuz she calls me to chill everyday and everytime we see each other or talk shes all smiles and its natural smiles and she loves being close to me like tonight before i left the party we talked alone for a couple minutes and she was right by me and when one of her girls came to get her and she left she held my hand until she was too far away. but yeah tonights just fucked cuz i know im into this girl and i know shes into me its just upsetting that i couldnt be with her longer i mean i showed up to the party late.....abit too late cuz she was already drunk but he thats life right but fuck man it just sucks cuz i know im not the best looking guy that was there and i just dunno wats goin to happen between me and her but in any case i just want to have shot at being with her so for now ill jsut be friends with her and hopefully by being friends ill get close enough to her that she'll see the real me and want to be with me.......well until next time im confused as fuck or depressed r extremely happy im out