Bad Communist
Lately I have been really really annoying myself, and somebody should have called me on it earlier. People... I swear are just too nice to me. Anyway, I've been bitching way too much lately. It isn't my place to complain. It is annoying to others and serves no purpose at all, except to demoralize those around you. I should know better.
Honestly, what do I have to complain about? Nothing that could not be fixed by a little courage from myself. Instead I complain, that is not the Marc people knew. That is the me that I tried to be, but am not. I have tried to be as people say, more human. I can remember how many times people would get angry with me for not showing any emotions in certain situations. Many said it was a facade. Actually, truthfully, there was nothing there. In many instances I just don't care, almost souless in a way.
Why did I take that path? Simply, I thought being emotional would get people to enjoy my company more. In fact, I think it has cost me more than being who I truly am. Actually... it really has cost me a lot.
This journal serves no purpose to those who read it. Why? Because it is too loaded with emotion, from now on I will just write down what is truly going on in my mind. There are some things that I will never share, not because i care what people think about me... simply because they need to remain hidden for a long time. I hope you enjoy the new approach to life, in the end it will be better for all of us.
Honestly, what do I have to complain about? Nothing that could not be fixed by a little courage from myself. Instead I complain, that is not the Marc people knew. That is the me that I tried to be, but am not. I have tried to be as people say, more human. I can remember how many times people would get angry with me for not showing any emotions in certain situations. Many said it was a facade. Actually, truthfully, there was nothing there. In many instances I just don't care, almost souless in a way.
Why did I take that path? Simply, I thought being emotional would get people to enjoy my company more. In fact, I think it has cost me more than being who I truly am. Actually... it really has cost me a lot.
This journal serves no purpose to those who read it. Why? Because it is too loaded with emotion, from now on I will just write down what is truly going on in my mind. There are some things that I will never share, not because i care what people think about me... simply because they need to remain hidden for a long time. I hope you enjoy the new approach to life, in the end it will be better for all of us.